Tried To Kill Yourself

(Sorry for the horrible grammar, but please read) I live in a house full of straight homophonic Christians but I'm not one plus I'm bisexual so we don't really get along, and I personally don't really like them because some force people to worship their God and are extremely judgment, like today me, my sister and my mom went shopping since school is around the corner, we went to the mall but she wouldn't even let me go where I want because they don't like my sense in fashion! She let my sister get a bunch of clothes but the store we were at were basic normie stuff! She knew I didn't like that stuff, I kept telling her you know can we like look around for me? And she was just like omg you ruin my mood so I followed them for a two hours, didn't bring pads with me so I was walking around in my blood lol she didn't care, then we left, I got nothing but she wanted to go to target for "me" but when we walk in, her and my sister went to look at stuff together and when I told her if she can help me look, my sister started arguing with me an then my mom to! And they started walking towards the exit like yk how much I wanted to cry? This is what its like being the black sheep of the family, though I don't know if I'm just being sensitive but please give me advice before I officially lose it.

Personally I’d return to the past cuz a fantasy world would literally kill me before I turn 1.