Help Me

so i've been trying to suppress my bad thoughts and it worked a bit but holy shit i feel so exhausted and nervous rn. its hard to explain what i'm feeling tbh. i went outside today and i was able to suppress a lot of bad thoughts and feelings (it was still pretty bad) but now, i'm feeling anxious and i wanna cry for no reason?? has anyone else experienced this?? where they suppressed their emotions abd niw it comes to bite them back in the ass?? how do i fucking fix myself?? please help

ok so. guy orders a new robot sex doll or whatever thinking it’s a girl but robot cat boy shows up and it turns out some of his students made it and force him to test it or tell everyone he bought a sex doll ig. then he falls in love w the robot but the students tell him cat boy isn’t the final model and they’ll turn off cat boy and recycle the parts but the guy helps him escape. also I Might have made up the cat boy part. other than that i remember everything so clearly i need to know why this manga is so?? detailed in my brain?i don’t even think it was that good wh. help what is it