Unpopular Opinion

I've always wanted to get older, but now not so much... I like the idea of getting older and having my own place and a stable job with independence, but I'm just in the awkward college still sort of a-kid phase. Growing up I was always the youngest in a situation and I feel like that's all I could really offer. I just finished my first year of uni and now that I'm entering my second year I won't be "babied" anymore since I'm not a first-year my age is really hitting me. And I know it sounds stupid cause technically I'm 19 and not quite "old" yet, but I feel like I'm at a turning point right now. Like something is changing. I don't know. I hated being a kid cause I had a rough upbringing, but I'm clinging to the past like a lifeline. It's pathetic, but I feel like I have no more excuses for how underdeveloped and how stupid I still feel now.

I had this crazy encounter with someone I just met. They looked like a guy, dressed like a guy, and had a super deep voice. I even complimented their outfit, saying "Hey man, where did you get that outfit?" and later told my friend how awesome "he" looked. Next thing I knew, they're accusing me of being homophobic for not asking about their pronouns first. I tried to explain that I assumed because they looked like a dude, but things quickly turned into a whole argument about pronouns and stuff. It got even more heated when they started implying that using "man" was offensive. It got me thinking - do pronouns really matter that much? LIKE WHAT SHE/HER DO TO YOURSELF IF YOUR TOO CONSCIOUS YOU HAVE A DICK oh + he look like homophobic because he's embarassing gay person on the way he act