Being With Friends And Family

Does anyone else hate their cousins/distant relatives? Lol. Cuz I do. But my aunts/uncles are alright since they give me money. :) I just really hate their children. My siblings get along with them but I’m always the one who gets left out or kept in the dark because I’m the “observer” and don’t really like talking to people. This applies to them as well. I am just not interested in them but idk why they gotta be jerks about it. So basically, I don’t feel like I have any belonging with them and it’s a real struggle cuz we gotta be staying over at their house for almost a week pretty much every year and it adds up. I don’t enjoy my time with them. We don’t have anything in common and they’re interested in things I absolutely despise. It’s always awkward asf cuz they be looking at me like that I’m a bug or some shit like leave me be lol. I don’t even wanna be here.