First Day Back To School

so yeah I got a call saying I could go back to school and I think they said they would do things a lot more differently because of social distancing and stuff. I'm not sure if I want to go though. despite school sucking, the work actually distracts me from my bad thoughts most of the time. that's kind of why I think it'll be good. I also have trouble paying attention at home so going back will probably help me focus. I'm usually lazy but when I have nothing good to do, I can become sorta hardworking. you may be asking "this seems good for you, why aren't you going?". wellll the problem is that I haven't went outside for a month and I don't want to go outside especially since I'm in a really bad place rn. I'm not sure if school can even help me in this moment and time. should I at least try going? what if I screw up something?