Confession

I’m making the confession anyway. On this site and another illegal manga site I frequent, I noticed a certain manga was popular. Typically I don’t keep track of this bc i honestly don’t care, but today, on mangago of all places I saw this same manga trending.

I haven’t read the manga and based on what I’ve heard about it (including how it’s promoted) I have zero plans to read it. It’s promoted in the same way chainsaw man was promoted and I do NOT like chainsaw man.

Anyway, the confession is, I don’t like how a certain manga gets super popular on these sites WHEN THE ANIME COMES OUT.

The anime is cool, animation is cool, it looks so interesting. That doesn’t mean the actual story is interesting. Going back to chainsaw man, I caved to peer pressure (boo hoo cry me a river) but the story in an actual critical sense (and not just what I prefer to read) was not interesting. Same with the animation. I mean it’s different but that doesn’t mean I care for it. (Specifically chainsaw man’s animation was a 3D animation style I’ve seen before. It was cool to see it mass produced in an anime… that didn’t make it good.)

Anywayyy I just really don’t like how a manga will get an anime and these illegal reading sites will have a large influx of viewers for the anime watchers that want to read the manga first,

I don’t like it because that makes it easier for the official publication to find these sites. And

Well

A good song never dies (even if you can’t access it anymore)

I caught my mom cheating on my dad when I was 11 or 12. My dad was away for work for two weeks, going to the countryside. Whenever he was away for that long, especially in the countryside, he would leave his touchscreen phone and only bring his Nokia phone.

I was in the living room when I heard my mom talking to someone. She was in her room (the walls were kind of thin). She was speaking in a very soft, low voice, which weirded me out because she would usually talk loudly when speaking to someone. I didn’t think much of it at first and continued watching TV, but then it happened again. So, I decided to check who she was talking to by climbing up on a piece of furniture (I don’t know what it’s called in English). There was a hole at the top of the wall, and I peeked through. I got a glimpse of who she was talking to, and it was a man who was definitely not my dad. I could only see the man's forehead and his eyes. He was lying sideways and wrapped in a blanket. There was even one time when she went completely naked in front of the phone in the kitchen.

There was a time when my dad and mom had a fight. I think my dad suspected she was cheating on him. I don’t remember if this happened before or after I found out that she actually was.

Months later, maybe, my mom got invited to a class reunion at the beach. My dad made me go with her. I saw that man again. It turned out they were classmates and childhood friends. I heard he used to like her, and maybe they used to like each other during their school days.

whenever my mom's phone was left alone, I had begun to check her messaging app to look for any DMs between her and that man. But when I checked, there was nothing—she must have deleted the conversation.

Years later, maybe in 2019, I was using her phone and saw someone on her messenger nicknamed "" (an alien emoji in case MGG doesn't allow the emoji). Again, it was that man. I don't remember what their conversation was about, but the only thing I can remember is checking his Facebook profile and finding that he was a married man with two kids who looked about 8 years old.

Wtf were they doing, and how could they keep this up for years? My mom barely leaves home, and when she does, she is usually with my dad—or with me, dad, and her together. That man lives across the country, so they've just been cheating using Facebook Messenger. They kept this shit up even after her and dad were finally able to conceive a child (in 2017)(dad passed away in 2018) (They aren't my bio parents; they were my aunt and uncle, but since they raised me, they were like my parents.)

late 2019, I think my mom completely stopped talking to him after that.

For whatever reason, I never told my dad about it—or anyone else. I don’t ever plan to confront her about it.