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I just have a minor panic attack when i'm on the computer
Even worse when its taking so long to open the browser
Why you may ask?
Because my mom screamed at me and told me to go onto the computer because i forgot to tell her that the report cards were coming out
I have really bad memory
So i got onto the computer and started clicking the browser and it wasn't opening and that made me even more scared and i wanted to hurry (oh yeah she hit me before this) so i started speed-clicking the browser to the point i may as well be a human auto-clicker
Anyway
That's over and she apologized so its all good
The problem is when i got onto the computer to go to animeflix i started having a mini panic attack cause i remembered how scared i was and started crying
I tried to remind myself that its over and she's not angry at me anymore
Sadly it didn't work
But it stopped when my mom said she loved me so that reassured me that she wasn't angry at me anymore
But i still got new trauma