Defining Words

Ever since I read the word "punish " in r18 comics, it became a kinly word to me. 'Cause whenever I read that in any manga/hwa/ua, the first thing that comes to my mind is the kinky things that they'll do. Like, I take the word as a joke now or in a kinky way (˙ᵕ˙ ) Lmaooo even if it's a serious scene, I can't take it seriously. Sorry, my bad.

There's definitely a stronger word than "punish," right?

And does anyone also think like me xD

IM HOLDING OUT FOR A HIMBO TILL THE END OF THE NIGHT

hes gotta be strong

and hes gotta be fast

and hes gotta be dumb and polite

I was scrolling through Pinterest and came across this quote and it ended up being the most relatable thing I`ve read in a long while. I do not have an answer on how to solve it since I`m going through it myself but I just want to say you`re not alone.

“I could not stop wasting time. It was crazy. I wanted to do something with my life, but instead I went to sleep, or sung in the shower, or sat and stared at the wall. I couldn’t even tell you about anything that I saw. I didn’t talk to anybody. The cicadas kept dying outside, and as I dreamed, my mouth grew thick and venomous with silence.”

— Yiwei Chai, The Jacaranda Years

i'd wake up
dead
i'd go to lunch
dead
i go to sleep at night
wonderin if im gonna die
dead
dead
gonna die
or be worm food one day
until i read this book
light in the mornin
now
im not afraid of death at all
in fact i cant wait to die
honestly
i cannot wait to die
uuh you know
i wake up in the mornin
im dissapointed
i dont choke on my food at lunch
im dissapointed
ill make it to dinner
im dissapointed
so light in the mornin
it truly changed my life
and;.....
i tell ya
the only way fir you to know
is for you to read it