How I Encountered Yaoi Mangas

Have you ever come to a point of conclusion where your family is toxic, I mean as kids we tend to love them with all heart and forgive them for every little mistake, but as I grew older I became very perceptive of their actions and insights on stuff, which were wrong, and I knew I was in a toxic family. For example, My brother blames every mistake HE DID on his family or me, or most of the time he blames God, and my parents who always choose what's "BEST" for me even though it's not what I wanted nor love.