What Does I Do

My boyfriends family are super hardcore trump supporters and I’m just not like that I have no interest in that mad or politics but they insist on wanting me to talk about it and like him and I just can’t, it makes me very uncomfortable when they talk about it and give me trump stuff I just throw it away, how do I tell them I’m not into politics let alone republican. And also happy pride month and don’t forget to donate to the blm movement’s or just sign your name!

Please help me. This is a long post but I am really desperate and I can't talk to other people about this.

I have been in love with a person for over an year now. She lives in a different country, we are friends who talk on a daily basis. When I first realised I fell in love with her, I knew I was screwed. This is my first time liking someone even though I am in my early twenties.
From the start I had no hopes of getting together with her or even confessing. Nothing of that sort.
I just want to stay by her as a friend and like help her from the sidelines, being an emotional support and someone she can talk to?
But, I am an incredibly petty person and I get jealous even when I am not supposed to. And sometimes she is really mean and it hurts me so so much.
She is a person who doesn't express her feelings that much so she doesn't even pay compliments or other stuff like a good luck on my exam or things like that. I repeat, we talk on a regular basis.
Most of the time I am just afraid that I am just another person to her, even though she means so much to me(even without the whole I am in love with her deal).
I don't know what to do anymore, sometimes I hurt like crazy and I literally cry for a week. But on the other hand, I don't want to stop talking to her.
This is really messing up with my life and I am just clueless. I don't even want a romantic relationship out of this. Am I over reacting? Or am I acting too much like a clingy brat?