And it's sucking mine rn/j
I js wanna vent.
As much as I love my cat and she's my #1 reason to keep on living, I can't stop thinking about killing myself
I have her sleeping right beside me, her warmth, and her little tiny sounds when she stretches, and breathes make me so calm, but it also makes me feel the guilt you get when you realize even w all this, you still wanna die
I now these thoughts are temporary, they'll eventually go away, and I'll probably continue on living life as if that thought has never crossed my mind
But then I think about how even if I get better, even if I take medicine, even if I go to therapy, depression never really goes away, you can't really cure it forever
I'll live life with the constant thought haunting me in the back of my head, but ig for now I'll settle for taking a nap w my cat again
I js wanna vent.
As much as I love my cat and she's my #1 reason to keep on living, I can't stop thinking about killing myself
I have her sleeping right beside me, her warmth, and her little tiny sounds when she stretches, and breathes make me so calm, but it also makes me feel the guilt you get when you realize even w all this, you still wanna die
I now these thoughts are temporary, they'll eventually go away, and I'll probably continue on living life as if that thought has never crossed my mind
But then I think about how even if I get better, even if I take medicine, even if I go to therapy, depression never really goes away, you can't really cure it forever
I'll live life with the constant thought haunting me in the back of my head, but ig for now I'll settle for taking a nap w my cat again
talk about what u like or comfortable with spread memes talk with each other express ur feelings. no bully no shaming no judging just listening and being nice this is ur safe place to talk abt whatever or just chill...
I don't understand the thing about feelings, I do have feelings but I feel like I can't feel my feelings.
And so I just want to ask but
• Why do humans get emotional on small matters
• Why do we express our feelings
• Why is it so hard to say “I love you”
• and what is it about feelings that make me question my existence
(Because I feel so inferior)
And only asking because I'm curious,
but why are people so judgmental
I'm laying here contemplating my future and I feel a mix of fear, confusion, sadness, guilt, a dash of depression, happiness, anger, worry, and then I feel empty as if I shouldn't exist, which confuses me.
And so I just want to ask but
• Why do humans get emotional on small matters
• Why do we express our feelings
• Why is it so hard to say “I love you”
• and what is it about feelings that make me question my existence
(Because I feel so inferior)
And only asking because I'm curious,
but why are people so judgmental
I'm laying here contemplating my future and I feel a mix of fear, confusion, sadness, guilt, a dash of depression, happiness, anger, worry, and then I feel empty as if I shouldn't exist, which confuses me.