All questions about being really bad at drawing

I've had body and face dysmorphia since I can remember I can't even look at my face in the mirror for long periods of time to my body I would wear layer on layer of clothes and constict parts to deform how my body shaped looked, recently this has been les and less of a problem thought I've come to a realization after looking at my art when this issue was at its peak I never drew or made any art of any kind with relation to human form or even face and when I did have some I never finished even at least sketching them because of this I had no skill in illustrating human or any humanoid creatures of any kind though now I'm starting to learn these things from scratch now that my issues have already lessened

I just wanted to share this, if anyone other than me experienced this?

its either my lack of sleep or the bottle of alcohol im drinking rn

why I've found just today that jojo part 6 is getting a anime adaptation.. why am i always so slow and clueless

Ok, I really want to know if you feel the same way as I do
I am literally trash at drawing, yeah..literally. I can't even draw a circle lmao
But at the same time I really really enjoy doing it, I have even bought a lot of art supplies because I love it sooo muchhhh UgHHhhHH *lol sorry* and I know you can get better if you're constant. But sometimes I'm like oh god f*ck it I'll better watch cute art blogs and admire people who can do what I can't do...*Sobs*
Anyways, does anyone else feel me? (´°ω°｀)