Family Drama

Is it common to be able eat anything in your kitchen? Let's say you live with your parents. You are still a high school student. Your parents provide you food right? They should right..

I'm thinking about this lately. Since my mom passed away, I've been reluctant to eat food in my own house. Because few times I ate food in my own house, someone kinda asked about the food and I felt really bad about it. It rarely happened before when my mom still alive. I know I'm spoiled asf. But I didn't realize it that my mom always give me all i want And I realized it now. Now I don't want to eat food when they don't ask me to. And it's in my own house I can't eat it. It's just feel weird to me. I'm crying while typing this. This is just hurt. Maybe there are many people who live like this since a kid, all I could say is you're strong

I am looking for a job now so I could earn money and buy food myself. I just want to vent here..