Stay Up Too Late Reading Yaoi

i have been on this site for tewwww long and sadly ive come to the realization that my addiction is unhealthy. i stay up late and am (sad to say) probs considered a corn addict bc im literally on this site almost everyday at this point (i read other comics dont get me wrong but its a bit hard to avoid like 18+ bl here lmao. and at this point its URGHHH like the main thing i come here to read. puking puking ahh nothing wrong w gay stuff, hell im gay, but there is something wrong and harmful about a corn addiction that im afraid many of us have at this point)

i think its the cause of my anger and me being angry all the time/ easily getting into fights bc surprise surprise (read it in that ladies voice plz) when i got sick and didnt have the energy to read it i felt better, not annoyed at literally everything. and then i got better from being sick and i still didnt have the urge to stay up late reading bl corn after that week period and oh my god the world has healed suddenly im not irritable like crazy and comments that would usually pisse me off didnt!! i am nicer neow!! but then i unknowingly relapsed.

i started reading it again and now im angry and mad again. the person who gets into arguments easily. i say horrible things suddenly due to anger and neow im confused bc i used to be able to usually process my anger in a healthy way?? but i wasnt addicted then and i wasnt waisting away hours of sleep, time, and my life reading cornnnnnnn. i think the root cause of my anger has been my increasing addiction oddly enough. the more i read it the less morals i have too bc this stuff is filled w r@pe and abuse and like UGH. now im like "yippie no r@pe!!" AHHH. but then bc almost every bl author loves their touch of sa ill end up reading it and mentally brushing it off for me to continue the story. i got into a bad argument and said something awful and as i was unpacking why am i like this i pinned it back to 3 years ago when i developed this awful trait, and it was sad to realize thats when my addiction really started. its probs other things too but i feel like a lot of its this. it affects my life, my sleep, my relationships, my mental health. everything really lmao.

i am deleting my account in like a few minutes. i need to mourn her (embarrassing, we all point and laugh. brain rot core) bc even before the creation of my pookie quiii i was on this site. its weird bc this has been a staple of my life for (everyone scream) like 6ishhhh years? and i have used it as a source of comfort for my silly life when she was miserable, thus creating my addiction. dont rely on corn to make u happy i beg. i thought i was happy but i was indeed not, i was probably more miserable but didnt realize it bc dopamine!! yippie!!! i hope i can stay motivated or i might puke! i will finally touch the grass we all fear. anywhoooo

goodbye (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

(if u have an addiction and u think its harming u i hope u get the motivation to stop or limit it. if u dont think its harming u by all means go ham i read the stories too they r fun lmao. i fought in those comments defending luca from his wh1re allegation, he is just blonde! defended sangwoo, not the crazy one the d1 coder, with my life!! but the fun has caused other aspects of my life to be harmed as a result. i sadly picked up corn tooooooo early and it has def messed me up. dont turn into a big emo grouch, or maybe u are one and ur wondering why, it may be ur phone!! ur mom was right its that damn phone!! corn can be evil when it turns unhealthy.)