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for some reason the reddest flags shine the most-

if you're bored: https://forms.gle/VbRLs1vMLeRMsVKp6

I (M14) am a violin player, I found my love for it through practicing alongside my sister (F18) for a duet we were supposed to perform 4 years ago, unfortunately, due to some circumstances, that duet has never been performed.
Four years ago, one day before the duet performance, me and my sister were practicing as usual after hanging out with our neighborhood friends. I got fed up, we kept practicing and practicing but I could not see myself getting better, it was horrible. I burst out of the room where my sister's piano is placed and was headed towards the stairs, the violin in my hands reminded me of my unimproving skills, so I destroyed it, I broke it.
Going up the stairs, my sister catches up to me and yells at the sight of a broken gift, all I could hear was screeching, i didn't even know what to do. In a fit of rage I pushed her down the stairs, I couldnt stand her voice anymore but she was gone, dead. I hurried down the stairs in a panic, I couldn't believe it, she was gone.
I wished to hold myself accountable but I was far too afraid, my friend (M14) was visiting us and was horrified at the sight of a motionless body down the stairs, he suggested we hang it to a tree in our backyard, I followed his suggestion in a daze and hung it. He said i'll be okay, he said it was something behind me. It was me.
AITA?

NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT

do you guys have any bl recommendations where the mc/ml is an old man, not just old by age, but also their appearance is looked old and how they act. it could be danmei, ff, or anything is fine.

jjk x disney princess

For me I have a bad habit of self inserting in stories where the FMC is bland/has no personality which leads me to not enjoy the story. I cant self insert in yaoi cus im not a guy, so I can read the series at face value even if both MCs are trash/poorly written.

I used to have really severe rosacea during the pandemic and ofc it made me really insecure and all, but it wasn’t to the point where I would do sh. I guess I just wasn’t that “self conscious”. Until after the pandemic when things were clearing up and it was all good to go out in public without a mask, someone “close” to me said that my rosacea was disgusting. My heart shattered. I became self conscious and more insecure than ever to the point that if I ever saw a reflection or a picture of myself I would cry and if there was chance I would ___. I wanted to peel my skin off, and if anyone even glanced or smiled at me I would have a Mental breakdown (I felt like they were judging my appearance),all I wanted to do was run and hide. It didn’t help that my hair was thin and falling. I had to shave my head and wear a wig. Ofc ppls little comments about their insecurities would just add more to mine. Things I didn’t even know could be insecurities.
- There’s more but I don’t want it to be any longer

I never liked that site but I enjoy the bots so share some sites/app that you use. (Extra points if there's little/no NSFW filter)

My favorite right now is Janitor AI. It does have a slight filter but its not as bad.

My kamioshi will be graduating :(( like ik it's inevitable but like... Still sad abt it uhuhu (っ˘╭╮˘)っ

How did you guys discover mangago? Mine was through a comment section on YouTube trying to find a manhwa in a lezhin ad

i'm interested in knowing what you guys started with so i'll go first

manga - tokyo ghoul
manhua - love is a cherry color
manhwa - orange marmalade

If you love yourself, I suggest you screen record your lists just in case anything happens to the site, although that is very unlikely. I learned my lesson when I put off screen recording my booklist in kissanime and I still hate myself for procrastinating on that

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdXKdHsm/

Why is big age gap so normalised in yaois? 5-6 may not be so bad depends on their age but some of them has 13 years age gap??? Like wtf. And okaaay if the younger person is 30 then it's not that bad but 20??? I feel like it's problematic

It's exactly like the title says and by the way my whole family is homophobic and I posted some intense BL on there I hope she did not look at the videos （/TДT)/

Am i the only one who thinks babies and toddlers are cute?...
I have a feeling nobody's gonna say no ;~;
I'm the only one aren't i...
(I agree with them being annoying)

Hope you have or had a good day at the very least!
I really hope things haven't been tough for you but i'm glad you're still hanging on :>
You aren't worthless, you're just too great for anyone to name a price on you!
You aren't ugly, you're just unique! I'm sure some people find you amazing for being just the way you are! You don't really need to change anything-
Well if you don't want to change that is
If you DO wanna change make sure you're changing for YOU and not for others!
You deserve to be happy!
You deserve to feel okay!
You deserve to feel peace even if its just for a moment!
You're a wonderful person! (even though i don't know you... Hehe...)
And oh yeah
Thank you for living! Love ya!
I gotta get to sleep now =^
Nighty night darlings! <3

https://youtu.be/mjB0d2Jbanw
Hope you like this <3

Mines lo-fi
With rain and not with rain sounds
And some calming music too
Lmao sounds basic but lo-fi's my fave
It sounds so peaceful and calming and its good sleep music