Made True Friends

I just can't make any true friends Most people around me would be so busy hanging out with their friends or even chatting with their friends for 24/7!! while I'm here watching YouTube videos, reading manga and repeating the same thing everyday! UNTIL I get bored(or lonely).And even though I try my best to socialize it just won't CLICK!! like my personality and likes are so different from all the people around me that our friend relationship would either be 1)me faking my personality 2) I won't talk to you again(cause I'm probably embarrassed at our conversations). Like at one point I tried talking (a.k.a. Befriending) to my seatmate at school and our conversation is composed of "who would win in a fight between a milk fish and a cat fish"

I loss my truely friend about a month ago he was a very energetic and injoyable personality that will you like her too... But he born blue baby that so difficult to see her so pale and have a dark nails and lips. He died from cardiac arrest. I was so sad he was sooo kind not only me but to everyone. ╥﹏╥