Pigwi
: Its an allegory to trauma recovery. Just because its forgotten doesnt mean she's truly moved on. She essentially coped by separating the unloved and traumatized version of herself and viewed it as "not her" so she can look away and forget but now that she's forced to recognize and face the past instead of compartmentalizing she cant cope anymore.
It definitely hurts when wanting an explanation, an apology, anything to how she was treated in the past only for the emperor to just push it aside and say "so what? Youre happy now right?" Like past abuse isnt still abuse and has lingering affects. Its so gaslighty and just a really shitty sentiment.
I also enjoy how she comes to hate herself upon this process. She's so cruel to herself but isnt that realistic? Blaming and hating herself for not being loveable and instead of being a child who dreamed of love she thinks its better to wish for the end of her suffering. She has no where else to push that anger and suffering towards even if its unfair bc, other than the abuser, theres no one more cruel to a victim than themselves.
Feeds
It definitely hurts when wanting an explanation, an apology, anything to how she was treated in the past only for the emperor to just push it aside and say "so what? Youre happy now right?" Like past abuse isnt still abuse and has lingering affects. Its so gaslighty and just a really shitty sentiment.
I also enjoy how she comes to hate herself upon this process. She's so cruel to herself but isnt that realistic? Blaming and hating herself for not being loveable and instead of being a child who dreamed of love she thinks its better to wish for the end of her suffering. She has no where else to push that anger and suffering towards even if its unfair bc, other than the abuser, theres no one more cruel to a victim than themselves.