yamiehan : Im @ chap 21 rn, super good 5 stars but also im ngl im so genuinely confused can someone explain, like the plot is so fun and all but my braincells arent braining... bc didnt he lose a good portion of his memories from the war?
doesnt he refer to himself as someone cant fight cuz he doesnt remember? Like the weak (body) part is right but he really can fight tho. But the chapters around 20 make it seem like he remembers the war, the neglect, and especially his hatred towards Cruel nd the family, as well as the knights he was captain of. Doesnt this mean he remembers the times he was fighting and fought to survive?

Did he remember memories bc of the flashback/dream? If so why is he still acting like he cant fight or do anything when he literally became count bc of his war achievements? He literally was the vanguard, he killed a buncha ppl nd shit why does he remember the soldiers nd yet not remember knowing how to fight im so sorry i am so fucking confused like its fun but the thread is like. All jimbled up in my head its hindering my enjoyment

Dw tho im rlly interested nd ill continue reading so maybe im just impatient and/or didnt read it right haha