I'm on chapter 3 only and I already feel nanasaki's pain OMW the feeling of wanting to be born the other sex the internal homophobia is captured so well all the fear that others will look at you otherwise and keep shut so that your life won't be hard he faced so much already the bullying the name calling I wish I was there to be his best friend to give him a shoulder to cry on I cannot imagine an elementary kid laughing for the sake of his mother during Christmas saying that he loved his present the maturity and most of all the sadness I felt that time! He began "fixing" himself the way he walked sat and talked ahhh only chapter 3 and i love this already (Sept 20, 2021 @02:19 am)
Update: on chapter 6 and he just admitted that he likes men OMFG the way he was thinking about if he's parents will be okay and his friends too that just hurt me so so much because I've thought the same thing the same process accepting it others are able to accept who they are but us coming from conservative families cannot it's been engraved into our brains
When Hase came to live with him and his face glowed I was in awe at how much loving one person can be so devastating he thought it was fate I gotta give it to Nasaki (forgot his name) despite all the unrequited love he still falls and is honest with himself I love him for that I truly do... calling Hase's girl a witch not wanting to him to be with her lashing out is all justified why? Because he has been keeping all this inside eating him out not since college but rather since he was young it took him long but he accepted that he is gay but he looked so devastated anyways I'm loving this sm at the middle of Chapter 6 he lashes out on his friends and they understand his pain OMFG when he felt that relief it was crazy I got goosebumps because when I came out to my friends I was lucky that they accepted me... I was so happy for that I truly was and then when he finally accepted himself being gay and being out and about I just knew that was a whole new nanasaki I just knew it
Chapter 6 September 20, 2021 @09:17 am
At chapter 8 Nanasaki is dating Taku and they had this wedding the girls are the best they threw their best guy friend a wedding because he said he'll be lonely till the end because same sex marriage is not allowed wow those are some heck of a friend I love her already
Then Taku didn't come out to his friends and they found out and it was the opposite of the reaction nanasaki got they made fun of him for being gay and Nanasaki himself admitted if his female friends didn't accept him he would've killed himself and because of that Taku ended up taking the route where he would go with women fall for women no matter what it makes me think how much what others think about you esp your friends whom you have known for so long influence your thoughts and decisions
Chapter 10 bitch this got me ugly crying OMFG like wtf Ryousuke proposed to Nanasaki and they went to get their marriage certificate but got rejected because they were two men and the way their face dropped I felt a ting of pain and then they went ahead and deemed themselves husband and husband after a partnership please I love them both so so so much and the ending where Nanasaki is writing his essay where be accepted himself where he says that the hardest part of his life was hating himself wow... that part got tears in my eyes
Chapter 11 Nanasaki came out to his mother and the mother was devastated and she goes so it cant be cured and Nanasaki was like theres no cure for this theres nothing that needs to be fixed OMFG THAT JUST THAT FUCKKKK Okay so I fucking stan the father fr fr the mother said she won't accept it and said she still loves him that's what a mother is not kicking him out or disowning him he said she'll understand him and eventually she did I love that for her and when the father said if the man he is dating is considering a future with him then he must be an earnest man PLEASE I LOVE THE FATHER
BITCH THE MOTHER ACCEPTED HIM AND WHEN SHE SAW THE NEWS FOR THEM SHE RELAYED IT AND GOT HAPPY FOR THEM AND NANASAKI GOT SO HAPPY THAT HE WAS HIS MOTHERS CHILD PLEASE THIS IS JUST TOO GOOD
Chapter 11 we got a backstory in Ryousuke's POV and it was amazing the way he wasnt confused about his sexuality and he eventually gave up on the getting married thing but he met Nanasaki and his encouragement made him believe in it again and when he said he is willing to walk this path with him even if he has to leave others and will be with him until death do them apart
Until I Meet My Husband