KatyJay's manga / #mature(15)

*Vol.2 Pg.18* (Reading for a Japanese Pop Culture class. Let's see how I enjoy this work.)

*Ch.67.5* Absolutely loved. So much misunderstandings that made me frustrated and cry bc they, especially Sangwoo would get hurt and their type of hurt runs deep in the mind (w/ trauma). I'm happy Sangwoo died rather than live the rest of his life in prison, but I dislike how Bum was the reason he got caught, even if it wasn't fully intentional, but knowing these kinds of stories, I knew it would end in death or some dark way. I will absolutely NOT forgive that old lady for finishing off my baby with a pillow, just bc his calling out for Bum kept her awake. I don't care if he was going to die anyway. She made it happen sooner and Sangwoo didn't know Bum's feelings before he died. One good thing about him dying before Bum could see him, is that it kept Bum from moving on which he was going to try to do after giving Sangwoo a ring since they decided to live like a married couple. The last thing we saw was Bum feeling reassured that Sangwoo did love him and he felt guilty that he could've seen him alive had he not been scared by the way people were looking at him, (which he wasn't used to after being with Sangwoo for nearly a year and Sangwoo defending him from those stupid people) he could've seen Sangwoo alive one last time. Although I'm a bit upset that it ended with Bum chasing after an imaginary Sangwoo and no clear ending, I have a strong feeling that it's implied that he will get ran over since he was in the street and follow the dead Sangwoo. I've felt this since a bit before they made their vows agreeing to die together, but especially after, that Bum needs to kill himself since he said he loves Sangwoo so much and his dying early and being found guilty was partially his fault. So although I wish I could see exact clarification that he dies, I know he will die, whether from suicide or his crazy state will get him killed since he won't be taking care of himself properly and is running into the street. He said he won't let Sangwoo go in the end, so he will follow him in death where they can be together. I loved this. It was a great experience and understanding of things. I can't say that I would re-read this often or that it's an exact fave bc of the ending, but I absolutely loved this and it will always be on top. Thank you author-nim for this great masterpiece and allowing there to be love. For the lovely Christmas specials and the hinted fate of their paths crossing once before in childhood, whether it was just a side story for fans or part of the actual story. It was amazing and truly dear to me. (I feel a littleupset with myself for waiting so long to finish this story when I was only 5 chapters away from the end and my feelings weren't as strong as they could've been had I finished it sooner. Though I did still get strongly affected. But I did so bc it was so emotionally pulling that I had to prepare myself and take a break since I was going back to a dark place. (Feb.14.21) (Wow. Just read from Ch.45 to Ch.62.5 on Sep.5.20) *Ch.53 pg.16-end especially pg.32-39 are just Mmmm. The best, sexiest, and emotional.*

*Ch.41* Chapter 30 is a blessing to my eyes and brings such joy and warmth. The sex scenes are amazing, especially since mutual feelings are held with Akihito admitting to himself and Asami how much Asami means to him and his reciprocation sexually, aside from emotionally. It's also really sweet to see that Asami does genuinely care for Akihito as more than a tool for pleasure and it is expressed to Akihito whoch means Akihito should no longer have doubts about what he is and means to Asami and if he should lwt himself go into Asami.

*Ch.6*