KatyJay's manga / #Sad(11)

The one with the long hair is a total bitch. He's so selfish. I hate him. I really wanted the uke to get together with the other guy when he confessed his true feelings after a long time. The boy with the long hair sabataged their chance at a truly, happy relationship that wasn't forced in any way like the uke was with the long haired boy. (It is kind of forced because the uke gets together with the long haired boy as a rebound. He goes out with him because the blonde rejected him after the long haired boy said he'd hate the blonde if he dated a guy. Only, the uke doesn't know this happened.) Now the uke is either attached to the long haired boy or he feels he must stay loyal to him since he loved him for the same amount of time the uke loved the blonde and the long haired boy became the lover of the uke. I think the uke feels he must devote himself to the long haired boy since on the uke's point of view, the long haired boy loved him when no one else would which wasn't true, but that information was kept from him for the long haired boy's selfishness. Now because of the long haired boy, two people who truly and genuinely loved each other, never got a chance to be together because one was put on the spot of fearing being hated by what was supposed to be one of his best friends who later takes the blonde's love of his life for himself.

Why so sad and heartbreaking? Do you not want me to be happy?

*Ch.67.5* Absolutely loved. So much misunderstandings that made me frustrated and cry bc they, especially Sangwoo would get hurt and their type of hurt runs deep in the mind (w/ trauma). I'm happy Sangwoo died rather than live the rest of his life in prison, but I dislike how Bum was the reason he got caught, even if it wasn't fully intentional, but knowing these kinds of stories, I knew it would end in death or some dark way. I will absolutely NOT forgive that old lady for finishing off my baby with a pillow, just bc his calling out for Bum kept her awake. I don't care if he was going to die anyway. She made it happen sooner and Sangwoo didn't know Bum's feelings before he died. One good thing about him dying before Bum could see him, is that it kept Bum from moving on which he was going to try to do after giving Sangwoo a ring since they decided to live like a married couple. The last thing we saw was Bum feeling reassured that Sangwoo did love him and he felt guilty that he could've seen him alive had he not been scared by the way people were looking at him, (which he wasn't used to after being with Sangwoo for nearly a year and Sangwoo defending him from those stupid people) he could've seen Sangwoo alive one last time. Although I'm a bit upset that it ended with Bum chasing after an imaginary Sangwoo and no clear ending, I have a strong feeling that it's implied that he will get ran over since he was in the street and follow the dead Sangwoo. I've felt this since a bit before they made their vows agreeing to die together, but especially after, that Bum needs to kill himself since he said he loves Sangwoo so much and his dying early and being found guilty was partially his fault. So although I wish I could see exact clarification that he dies, I know he will die, whether from suicide or his crazy state will get him killed since he won't be taking care of himself properly and is running into the street. He said he won't let Sangwoo go in the end, so he will follow him in death where they can be together. I loved this. It was a great experience and understanding of things. I can't say that I would re-read this often or that it's an exact fave bc of the ending, but I absolutely loved this and it will always be on top. Thank you author-nim for this great masterpiece and allowing there to be love. For the lovely Christmas specials and the hinted fate of their paths crossing once before in childhood, whether it was just a side story for fans or part of the actual story. It was amazing and truly dear to me. (I feel a littleupset with myself for waiting so long to finish this story when I was only 5 chapters away from the end and my feelings weren't as strong as they could've been had I finished it sooner. Though I did still get strongly affected. But I did so bc it was so emotionally pulling that I had to prepare myself and take a break since I was going back to a dark place. (Feb.14.21) (Wow. Just read from Ch.45 to Ch.62.5 on Sep.5.20) *Ch.53 pg.16-end especially pg.32-39 are just Mmmm. The best, sexiest, and emotional.*

*ch.68* Love! Kister and Johnathan are the cutest. Adorable pair that I can't get enough of. I need them to hurry up and get together. Everyone is suspicious, specifically those around Johnathan.|Ahhh! Finally complete! I understand that they may be at least friends now in the end, but I needed a more definite ending. I wanted to see them actually communicate after Kister's release. And I needed to see them enter a relationship!! But at least we know that Johnathon wants to stay in contact with Kister, who is madly in love with him. I love how devoted Kister is throughout the story. Johnathon is his one and only love of his life and that will never change. UWU. I hope there are some side stories released later. (Feb.28.21)

*Ch.5.5*

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