blue's manga / #suicide(6)

this story is beautiful but fucked up. the first thirty chapters where heart-wrenching, i will admit i cried. the dark art, the shitty mothers, the way two men came together that have experienced utter betrayal by the ones they trusted. all these things mad they story even more hard to understand. the more i read this the more i love hosoo's best friends, the pregnant lady has captured all my support. i wish they hadn't cut ties with their younger siblings, it's mostly misunderstandings, all they wanted to do was help they just approached the solution wrong. also, the manger is sexier with his hair down and i stand by that he also looks ages younger.

this was good. not perfect but still enjoyable. i’ve never read a story where i’ve despised so many characters. the real victim is the twin who died but he’s free, he gets to live in peace, he would’ve never had this if he stayed. i’m happy the mc was able to get a decent life and become happy. this story is dark and messed up in many ways but it was done well. it has holes and isn’t perfect but I can tell the author tried hard. I expected myself to cry and be triggered but honestly I was more angry than anything.

it’s funny how fast someone can change your life, how they can put light into your darkness, how a moment with them feels like a lifetime. they were both innocent and K was guilty. rapists are monsters when they commit their crimes they no longer have humanity left, he deserved what he got. the sweet grandma breaks my heart, even in the end she wished for their happiness and believed they were not cruel but were loving and kind. although it hurt to read I was happy they chose their own ending, i’m happy they got to decide how to leave the world that betrayed them. death by downing is painful and are hard way to go because no matter what you body naturally fights to survive. the author creating a cute side story of them being reincarnated made me happy. after reading about their pain it was nice to see them both healthy and free. i’ve had this story on my list for so long but I knew it was sad. my person passed away in december on christmas day, and now all I can do is hope that he’s okay and found peace - that’s why I finally read this story. reading this made me think of him… think of us. going from strangers to lovers to felling like fate so fast. not being able to imagine a world without the other. i live on without him but a part of me did die with him. I think he was my fate and I hope in the next life I meet him again. I hope I fall in love with him again. I hope I get to feel his embrace at least one more time.