blue's manga / #sad(25)

this was just as the name says. it was intense. I had moments where I read fast because I was scared to feel only pain. the angst and anticipation kept my heart racing. I didn’t know if their ending would be good or bad. their pasts are both tragic and painful, what they went through is devastating but they can’t let their past hold them back and instead need to move forward. they found happiness within each other. the manga was well written and although tragic I think the ending was fitting. to only feel pain and be scared of pleasure since it’s unknown is a terrifying thing and I’m happy the mc was able to learn pleasure is happiness and shouldn’t be scary. I enjoyed this and I’m happy I came across it.

it’s funny how fast someone can change your life, how they can put light into your darkness, how a moment with them feels like a lifetime. they were both innocent and K was guilty. rapists are monsters when they commit their crimes they no longer have humanity left, he deserved what he got. the sweet grandma breaks my heart, even in the end she wished for their happiness and believed they were not cruel but were loving and kind. although it hurt to read I was happy they chose their own ending, i’m happy they got to decide how to leave the world that betrayed them. death by downing is painful and are hard way to go because no matter what you body naturally fights to survive. the author creating a cute side story of them being reincarnated made me happy. after reading about their pain it was nice to see them both healthy and free. i’ve had this story on my list for so long but I knew it was sad. my person passed away in december on christmas day, and now all I can do is hope that he’s okay and found peace - that’s why I finally read this story. reading this made me think of him… think of us. going from strangers to lovers to felling like fate so fast. not being able to imagine a world without the other. i live on without him but a part of me did die with him. I think he was my fate and I hope in the next life I meet him again. I hope I fall in love with him again. I hope I get to feel his embrace at least one more time.

I would love to read a prequel on how they met. this story was so sweet and I cried. same-sex relationships are just like any relationship but I get not wanting to take away someone’s chances. I get the weight but you have to talk about it. I remember telling my partner that I couldn’t have her child and I started crying and wanted to end things she said that she couldn’t have my child either and asked if I still loved her. of course, I loved her! I don’t care about that I just wanted to be with her. “it’s the same for me so why can’t you accept my choice,” that was the biggest realization that it wasn’t my choice to decide her future. it was my choice to define what happiness is to her. I just wanted her to be happy and because of society and my family I didn’t think I was enough, I thought she could find true happiness with a man, what awful irony. I went against everything I believed because when I was faced with a reality I didn’t want her to lose people as I did. I understand why he did it and I understand why the seme was so mad. this story was beautiful and im happy I came across it. I hope a day comes when we don’t have to second guess ourselves when it comes to happiness.

although the ending was inevitable I am still so sad. on the verge of tears. they truly loved each other and lived long lives. I read another story where one died at an early age and I cried my eyes out because their time was cut incredibly short. at least in this story, they spent their entire lives together and although they had to part they will be reunited soon. okay well, I need to go find something happy because after typing this I’ve started to cry.

beautiful work of art. with great details and realism. but it’s sad. to be treated so poorly. to be judged for loving someone. to me being loved by someone is the greatest gift and to feel bad about receiving a beautiful gift because the world is cruel breaks my heart. it hurts to watch your family abandon you when you need them most. I get it’s not easy for the parents but i will never understand why it is a struggle for a parent to love their child unconditionally. I cried cause it was sad. I was outed and after all these years I will never forget the disgust in my father's eyes. when the mother said it was disgusting i felt my eyes fill with tears. my father turned his back on me. “how could my own flesh and blood” he said. as if he was the one being turned away. as if he was the one praying to be different. even if a story ends happily it doesn’t mean the struggles and pain along the way were not heartbreaking. in the end they lost everything besides each other. it should never be a crime to love someone. a great story and i’m so happy I came across it.