blue's manga / #horror(10)

just to make clear killing stalking is not a yaoi/bl it is a psychological thriller. this messed up my mind. why did that wife's husband that was another victim have such similar wounds we saw as sangwoo when he was rescued? does bum die by being hit by a car? he's so messed up mentally im not sure he could ever recover or live a life without abuse. sangwoo and bum did make a promise to both die, perhaps a tragic ending like this is the best option. its been weeks i'm still traumatized.

in the end, they were both twisted. they were both wartime in a story that was nearly poetic. alex killed not out of anger or hatred he did it to entrap the feeling of those that loved and cared for him. was he a killer of course but in a way it was beautiful. i wonder if people will tie the murders stopping and the author of those books stopping. i wonder if things will be connected or if clark will continue living his life as dark as the killer that loved him. how he interacted with alex and how he was almost always a step ahead of him. he knew how to give alex exactly what he wanted and also take it all away without any facial expressions. even, in the end, no one but him knows the real story. It's as if clark is keeping alex hidden and now he’s just another book in his collection of many.

I don’t understand why the ratings for this are so low it’s overall a good story with an interesting plot. is it fucked up? 100% yes but that doesn’t make the work shitty. it’s a good psychological thriller. the story was crazy and what happened was wrong especially all of the rape but it doesn’t deserve such low ratings. yikes did my mans just get kidnapped again?!?!

chapter 46 finally some truth and realizations. I thought this was great. it was less scary and more mind-opening. mirrors are the only time we can truly see ourselves. not in the eyes of someone else but who we are. our darkness that drives us but we keep shoved deep down. I think it was great how the bl was drawn throughout the story. the are more than words can explain. black rooms everywhere… I wonder what i’m keeping in mine. loathe is an incredible thing.

looked at all the raws and i am very much so invested!!! it’s completed - what an abnormal but intriguing bl. I like the zombie setting and the relationship between the characters. I think it’s ridiculous how small the mcs penis is but when the redhead gave him head it made me laugh - he looked like he was drinking through a straw. both the tops seem to truly care about the mc, their eyes never acknowledged anyone else and it’s cute how they both nag and try to kill each other. the author's note was helpful and fun to read, they acknowledged it wasn’t perfect but I could tell they worked hard and had fun, I didn’t expect the age difference since the three of them act like children. overall it’s them against the world and at least they don’t have to worry about having a crying baby. I liked the change the bl had and I hope to see more like it in the future. there’s another zombie one i’m reading that not complete and I also enjoy it. I personally would either die at the beginning of the apocalypse or people would have to help me survive, honestly, if two people fell in love with me I would try living.. hehe. well, anyway this was great in its own way.

i’m not going to read it here but to take note season one covered up till chapter 38 :) see you later future me

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