blue's manga / #death(4)

i don’t know what i was expecting while reading this but wow. yaoi full of violence, blood, and uncensored sex. how amazing. the story was fun and i liked the change compared to just fluff. the whole drug thing made me mad and using people as toys... disgusting. but the author did an incredible job this was an absolute favorite but i will read it again in the future, it’s also 6 am and i’m sleep deprived.

i’m crying and my chest hurts. the person I believed to be my destined one died last year and I couldn’t bring him back. I wasn’t allowed to time travel and change his fate. I couldn’t give him a second chance. he loved me so much but I never truly said it and when I decided to he was already gone. do you know how painful it is to read a tragic story and it be no different from your life. I would’ve done the exact same as the mc. I am terrified of heights but I would’ve happily jumped from the tallest building if that meant he would live. I don’t have peace or happiness. I have a hole in my soul. if us never meeting meant he would've lived I would be okay with that. if I carried all our memories and he forgot me but lived I would be happy. I would’ve done anything for him to live. he loved me unconditionally but I was scared and in the end, I fear he died thinking I didn’t love him. destiny or fate I refuse to believe this was the only path for us.