to see an extremely visually impaired person in a shounen ai so interesting to me. I throughly enjoyed the plot and i thought it was quite nice and complex. The people’s emotions were literally everywhere. And though this may be a manhua i’ve realized this manhwa that people leave and people come into your life. That’s just how life is and will always be. Patience is nesscary even for the people who are impatient. Sometimes if a person is worth it maybe you should wait for them and when you realize they aren’t worth it it’s okay to move on. It also good to have friends that push you to move on. Though i cant say much for romantic relationships i think this applies to every relationship. It’s made me hate the thought of my best friends leaving my side. Sometimes i feel as though my best friend Katelyn is leaving my grasp and I hate it so much it makes me want to cry when i think about it(literally rn). I love her so much. Since romance isn’t an option i realize and with romance being honestly i think the best way to tie someone down all I have is friendship in which i have to be careful and funny and relatable and clingy but not too clingy. It’s sometimes tiring to force myself to do those things but i do them anyways. Katelyn told me I was basically her only friend in middle school, and though i did have “friends” in middle school they didn’t stay with me for long. They were just nice to talk to. But i’ve realized now that Katelyn is basically the only person that ties me to every other person i talk to. I so selfish honestly it crazy the amount of things i want, It sucks cause i can’t even be like jealous like i mean of course i can but i can’t make my friend not something cause i’m jealous but usually in a relationship you can somewhat do that. But my sorry ass can’t feel romantic or sexual attraction wtf is this bullshit. I didn’t ask for this. I love accepted it and It also makes me happy most of the time but at times i just wish I was like the rest of the main group. Sometimes i think maybe i can force myself? But i know it wouldn’t make me happy and I would just be using a boy for my selfish reasons. God i’m so frustrated why did i need to turn out ace T^T i love my self don’t get me wrong but everything was so complicated it took so long for me to figure this out and the signs were all there ;-;
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