The Double Agent
This is a troupe I honestly am disgusted with Im not sure how this turned into a romance…maybe stockholm syndrome? goodness gracious this woman is hopeless and honestly very stupid and foolish, I enjoy reading about clever characters much like the male lead though i am very disgusted by his view point with humans since i’m not sure of his backstory and even with his backstory this is unacceptable. Honestly it was really weird because i like clever characters and the female lead is nothing of the sort, but i feel as though that made her more human. Her trauma absolutely hurts me I feel sick reading this and I honestly just didn’t want finish reading because i felt sick to my stomach. These are so flawed in cruel and disturbing ways. I don’t enjoy but i somewhat understand it. The male lead I feel is cruel for no reason his logic makes no sense to me even when the female lead says “he’s being logical”. I don’t know how to feel… I enjoy romance and these characters LOOK like beautiful people but they aren’t at all. At some point when i reading this i thought to myself I would rather kill myself then be brought to so much hatred, despair, and misery. I knew the moment she said “living is so hard” something like that. That in the story she would not be right in the mind. I could see the absolute horror coming her way. It saddens me to see the only character that seemed to care about her well-being and didn’t use her or treat her as a doll or a dog was murdered but i hate to say i saw it coming for all this comic represents to me is misery and pain, pain that makes you sick, that makes think bad thoughts. I thought honestly this would be the group i enjoy because it looked like “saving the girl, understanding her pain and loneliness” for the cover that’s what i perceived but only because It was my hope. Writing causes me immense amounts of pain. I’ve been thinking to myself i really need to get my head of the books, escapism is wonderful, I’m glad it was created, and i’m glad it was used during the great depression. I don’t know what to think anymore this book just made me sick and empty. My head really hurts. I don’t think the author wanted to make the reader cry because this entire book just feels like passing misery onto someone else. Like they wanted to cover up their own pain with a book. OR their just somewhat sick and desensitized with reality. I don’t know what i’m saying any more lol, honestly i feel like Sasha when she laughs emptily and starts crying though i only feel the empty laughter part. :)
Nevermore