well shit's manga / #ANATOMY HOLY SHIT(127)

Wrote so much rambling abt this but then shit happened and its gone so im gonna try to write it again with hopes i capture the gist of how i felt when i read this I cant believe that i put off from reading this for so long oh my god. All because i thought it was gonna be a silly little pwp trope bc cmon cum with pearls? But NAUR author set up the most heinous and exploitative situation jooha could be in and its heart breaking to read him go thru it all TTTT dooshik’s background and character was interesting too bc this guy has his flaws LMAO flirtatious, vulgar and arrogant as hell at times but GOD is he so lovable. Both jooha and dooshik are one of the most lovable characters ive ever read so far, aside from shin and wolfgang from kings maker. The depth these characters have is fucking stunning, dooshik’s dedication and stubbornness in making things Work for him and jooha is so so sweet and endearing bc this mf became a gangster for him. PLEASE its so TTTTTTTT usually in bl, one will be the love interest and the mc and the love interest would just get the childhood backstory and thats it but this??? BRO jooha and dooshik carried the shit out of this story, theyre both such good mcs in carrying the plot its SO SO SO GOOD. Author developed their characters and relationships perfectly. Their intimacy and banter and sex was such a joy to read, it felt authentic almost? Especially the casual way in how they disagree in things and the way they address each other in mundane convo. Its so fucking good yall lmao, writing such seamless dialogue like that is a feat in itself and the author ate it UPPP and usually i’d be happy enough with the great dialogue but NO the author mfkin COOKED SOME MOREEEE. Art is fucking GORGEOUS. I couldnt stop staring at how beautiful dooshik is drawn. THATS MY HIMBO BABY GIRL. He is SO FUCKING COOL, especially in later seasons where he became a gangster hes fucking ruthless its sos sexy??? RAHHHHHHH felt like reading a shounen manhwa in some scenes, he was that badass lmao. and hes the perfect lover for someone like jooha THEYRE JUST SO PERFECT FOR EACHOTHER all the fluffy scenes of them enjoying life is so so cute TT the singing in the car scene was especially dear to me its just so cute. Dooshik is such a big lover boy and the fact that he can finally be as doting as he wants with jooha is so so cute TTT NOW THE DAMN ANTAGONISTS. Oh author cooked in this one too lmao its been a good while since an antagonist pissed me off this badly LMAO pilwon deserves the shit daekwang and daehui went thru like the fact that he died off screen felt foul. Thats the only thing i have a problem with this story LMAO i want this mf to rot in jail yo. The amount of times i yelled at the screen for dooshik to record his convo with pilwon is shjdjdjdj LIKE SET HIM BACK UP??? i need to isekai in this story just so that jooha and dooshik can be happy and in love in peace TT sure the twins got shit handed back to them and it feels great but i’d rather author scrap it to include pilwon’s demise instead ykwim? And speaking of this, one thing im rlly happy that the author did was minimizing backstory of certain characters? Like pilwon in jooha’s life and eunwoo in dooshik’s life. Both experiences were just shitty and instead of prolonging it to some 3 chapter backstory author made it short and sweet and enough for the reader to gauge the entire situation in our head. Author is VERY good at giving bits of info instead of holding our hand thru it. I LOVE that approach lmao. Sometimes, shitty ppl dont need some in depth chara backstory, theyre just shitty people full stop. NOW THE STARS OF THIS STORY. Seunghyun and jaepil deserves so much more merch of their own LIKE GET DAEKWANG AND DAEHUI OUTTA THERE, SEUNGHYUN AND JAEPIL STOLE THE SHOW FOR ME I LOVE THEM SO MUCH????? They had so much potential to be a side couple especially with how much seunghyun is obviously pining for jaepil ITS CRAZYDBDNND we rlly couldve had some old man yaoi action….. give them a spinoff author.., please………. THEYRE TEW GOOD????? love how they were written so much in the conflict, it rly felt like a solid power struggle with pilwon for gangnam, shit was STRESSFUL. And with what jooha has gone thru, it rlly gives the readers this sinking feeling bc theres stakes and consequences to this. I love it when authors do that especially with a genre like this. This amps up even more with jooha struggling with his ptsd. I LOVE the scene where jooha went to get treated for it and is TRYING so hard to move on from it. It adds so much more depth and authenticity in joohas character, i love it so much TTT Now . The ending. Its so bittersweet like tears were definitely shedjdjjd. It feels like a small mercy and act of kindness from the universe to have jooha forget the most traumatic moments of his life. Hes finally able to relive back his youth in a more safe and loving environment with dooshik. And dooshik being hellbent in making jooha happy and rewriting all of his initial memories with pilwon. That shit fucking hurt bc good for jooha but GOD i want to give a hug to dooshik TTTT hes the one bearing the trauma for the both of them and with his character, as much as he misses the og jooha, he’d rather see this jooha who laughs more freely and happily with no worries. Hes okay with it and you KNOW he wont say a peep about their past to maintain the happiness jooha is having TTT its so heartbreakingly bittersweet..,,, especially knowing dooshiks character development,, (a bingqiu/yuan au of this would be so sickening mhm) AND AND the plunge into the ice cold water at the end where jooha finally remembers again his og memories is so . I WANNA CRY. “Its good to see you again” ITS KKEUT. SCENE!!!!! Its ambiguous but such a happy and bittersweet ambiguous ending in a way, bc jooha remembers again and theyre together and happy and moving on and thats all that matters rlly….. good for them TTT after all they went thru, a win is a win and i’ll take it LMAO it feels good too to end it that way bc jooha and dooshik deserve to have this moment of respite with eachother away from privy eyes (readers) and this subtle, open ending is perfect for them TTTT im really satisified with the ending and even extras,,, uwa TTT it was brief but im glad jooha experienced a new set of fond memories of his youth with dooshik in it. GOOD FOR THEM!!!!!! Rlly cant judge a story by its description and people commenting bc it all comes down to your own reading comprehension of it and to see people lack it and be loud abt it rlly ruins a story so im glad i went in this blind!!!! Author aced everything imo, from the plot, the characters and their dynamics, their developments, their conflict, the dialogues, the art AND panels,, all of it is fucking gorgeous. The conflict is stellar bc each of the characters motifs felt charged and had weight in it. Its SOLID and i fucking love it LMAO. jooha’s grit and dooshik’s determination to survive thru it all so that they can be free and happy is done so tastefully. The dark shit was great i love Everything abt it!!! Author went ham with it bro. With how everything unfolded like a movie, it makes sense that the author spent majority of the week planning the story board bc BRO, the foreshadowing and panelling is to DIE for. Its a cinematic masterpiece its fucking good??? Angles are dynamic and fun with equally engaging dialogue and monologues. Im singing praises bc author did their damn fucking thing???? Its amazing???? To see this level of detail in its art, plot and characters in just 90 chapters. no dilly dallying, none of that. Straightforward but not the point of spoon feeding your audience. Author is insane LMAO im definitely looking forward to more of their works, bc this being their first long series is just crazy. 10/10, straight into bl’s magnum opuses. Its fucking good LMAO. Deserves an anime. Deserves a kdrama even lol. Shit was like a MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! I love u author….. definitely gonna remember this story and characters (dooshik and jooha my sweethearts) for a long time<3

Surprisingly really fucking good with the character depth and development especially yirim. Hes so? My manipulative low self esteem blorbo…,.. i love him so much…. The way hes ready to bolt the moment he knows hes not useful for cheongho is so damn heart breaking and cheongho’s character development from being distant and in denial to fully loving and adoring yirim is so sweet and satisfying RAHHHHH i love angsty dramatic miscommunication tropes, its like bread and butter to me lol ESPECIALLY when the uke has a tendency to slip away!!!!! looking at my list of beloved blorbos (kdj, sqq) its obvious why i love yirim so much lol low self esteem and manipulative mcs I LOVE YEW!!!!!! and mls who are chasing after them. YEARNING!!! This is CRACK to me Definitely gonna reread this, the story unfolded so smoothly i rlly binged this in one go lol. The art improved a lot too!! AND YIHO!! THE CUTEST BABY IN BL EVER???? I’LL DIE FOR HIM???????? JUST SO DAMN CUTE AND HIS LIL OUTFITS??? falls to my kness 10/10, engaging plot, gorgeous art and anatomy especially the sport scenes, addicting angsty dramatic push and pull scenes (TO ME!!! I LOVE IT!!), satisfying character growth and depth, and the complexity of cheongho’s character was so well done too, love how it wasnt a simple solve it all situation when yirim started emitting pheromones. Cheongho still has troubles regarding it but hes trying and he finds the goodness in it bc now he can spot yirim easily among the crowds RAHHHHHHH its a solid couple yall, they feel GROUNDED!!!! Love it adorable im obsessed a very good quick read

IMMEDIATE 10/10 FULL STARS!!!!!!!!!!!! give me sweet sunshine catboy and his exhausted worker husband and i will eat that shit UPPPPPPPPPP. Kedama no.1 best wife ever, love how chigusa never corrected his colleagues from wondering if he has a cat, a wife, a cat wife, and a girlfriend LOL its so cute. And kedama is SOOOOOO fucking gender, the gender is gendering so hard i love it. But real talk i did not expect to get my heart squeezed when i read this. I was tearing up in almost every chapter bc of how earnest and sweet kedama is, especially after knowing how badly he has been treated. Like look at him as a fluffball how could people be so mean to him my heart broke at him wanting to be useful for chigusa. “If master is happy, im happy!” KEDAMA MY SWEET BOY all he wanted was to be loved…. Im gonna cry And chigusa’s character is so well fleshed out too. His character development and conflict regarding his wife’s death and how it haunted him with guilt but finally being able to move on when he met kedama… hes so endeared by kedama its so so cute i love him so much, what a gentle good giant.. love love love his emotional breakdown when he realized the possibility of kedama disappearing and how it Crushed him when he saw how much kedama cherished the cheap bracelet.. ITS ALL IN THE LITTLE THINGS. The slice of life and sweet domestic bliss they had was so sayisfying and comforting to read. Everything just felt so tender and sweet and warm they truly love each other so much,,,, Author depicted kedama’s cat traits so adorably, especially when hes in his lil fluffball form trying his absolute best despite the odds, hes the bestest catboy wife ever…. His bright innocence and genuine care in taking care of chigusa had me tearing up bc my godddd, he just wants to be useful and to not be abandoned,, its so heartbreaking im so glad the author didnt put unnecessary drama, and even without it, the story’s conflict about “loving and to be loved” still hits just as hard especially with kedama’s abadonment issues and chigusa’s guilt/grief. The slice of life is tooth achingly sweet, theyre so so damn cute. I wouldnt mind the author spanning this out in multiple volumes. I love it so much i love the characters the couple dynamic the angst the story telling the gorgeous art and wonderful panels its all 10/10. Straight to point story with a charged theme of what it means to love and be loved. This is the second work ive read from koishikawa sensei and goddamn do they know how to write and express the desperation in wanting to be loved and needed. Its heart wrenching lol what a goat

LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FINALLY SHIZUN FUCKERS WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh this iconic trope girl i eat this shit up!!!!!!! Instant favourite im obsessed. Cho yun is so gorgeous, a calamitous otherworldly beauty!!!! His internal panicking is so cute oh my god he reminds me so much of shen qingqiu ITS SO GOOD the art is absolutely stunning too oh my god. author your MIND. 10/10 FIVE STARS IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!

EX HITMAN MC GETS TAKEN IN BY A FLORIST SLASH UNDERCOVER MAFIA ML INSTEAD AND HIBIYA ADORES HIMMMM???????? pulling all the strings to protect taiga please omg thats so cute

Sending juheon all my Fs bc dohu is so oblivious theyre on Very different pages rn its hilarious lol also author’s constant [this does not reflect the author] note everytime dohu comments about stuff is so fucking funny AUTHOR ITS OKAYBDJDJ i definitely get dohu though toxic semes are an acquired taste that not many can fuck with but for me?? I eat that like breakfast!! Goody two shoes semes are bland as hell with no space to expand their character but complicated toxic semes?? AURRRR LOVE ME SOME CHARACTER DEPTH Also this dynamic? Cold but actually soft puppy seme x airheaded aloof calm uke is everything to me and author did it right love how calm and straightforward dohu is whenever he handles juheon AHHHHHHHHHHHH its so fresh,,,, i love it……… its very much giving sub top and dom bottom energy lol IM OBSESSED with the way juheon’s character unravels everytime dohu reaffirms him that he is Not as bad as hes making himself up to be. Words of reassurance is so important for juheon and now that he found someone who accepts him as he is And even likes him (juheon my sweet boy..) ofc hes gonna immediately latch onto dohu dohu definitely didnt expect juheon’s feelings to escalate that way LMAO But god im not complaining at awlll i love dohu’s character so much, seeing dohu be firm in what he believes in and setting boundaries to what he wants or doesnt want to do is so refreshing for a bl mc lol like i love me some pushover mcs sometimes but damn,, stand up a bit!!!!!!! Dohu is like a fresh breath of air and he read the shit out of juheon’s personality EASY!! Gagged him bad yo!!!!! Ohhhh i love the misunderstandings lol the subtle angst and conflict is gonna be so fun LMAO they really remind me of bingqiu,, calm collected mc and blackened but also white soft lotus maiden ml… i love u………….. so much…..

jung inseok, the potential u could have if u were the ml instead.. give him the mafia and insane yandere role and i truly would have gobbled this to the bone. plate licked EMPTY!!!! Like hes such a fine ass character and the fact hes some side canon fodder instead?????? let me transmigrate in there and give him the schloppy toppy instead omg (AND HE GOT THE SOMNO FROTTAGE TOO?????????? Girl wrap it up why isnt he the ml ) Anyways this is very toxic yaoi with a capital T. Very yum very flavourful, love ml (sehan’s) brief experessions of joyful depravity whenever he gets (mc) chaon lmao what a sick bastard!!!! And chaon’s character is SOOO good too, love how casual he is with his flings and how he Knows what he likes in sex (inseok x chaon my numero uno..) like thats incredibly sexy of him tbh lol his excitement whenever the sadism gets physical is so cute and banging the manager for the part time job?!?! We love a resourceful man! the fact that what binds them together is chaon’s guilt towards what happened to sehan is such a good premise like these two bitches are fucked!! Good for them!!! Theyre made for each other!!! So obsessed with the way the author portrayed chaon’s trauma of tunnels, sooo damn cool!!!!!! Author is fucking goated in panelling and dynamic angles bc shit felt so smooth and fluid??? The art is gorgeous as hell too!!!!! LOVE LOVEEEEE the way the author depicted the sex scenes, like author definitely studied porn to a T bc those scenes felt too damn sensual and realistic. The hand placements, the dirty talk, the way sehan held down chaon’s hand between his knees, the sex positions????????? EVERYTHING???? Its fucking amazing????? Im just here to study the sex scenes atp jesus author rlly cooked in those scenes I love toxic yaoi truly i do i eat all the dead doves there is atp, but sighhh inseok being toxic ml potential only to be a side piece saddened me so much, i cant stop thinking about all the what ifs its definitely built for the psychological, toxic yaoi audience lol honestly im kinda intrigued on the level of depravity author is gonna do for this couple bc love/sex stemming from guilt and humiliation??? Girl im sat

SIYEON MY BABYGIRL PUPPY RETRIEVER MAIDEN HEARTED TEARY EYED SQUIRTER BOY…….. I LOVE U TO DEATH!!! so fragile hearted so soft so cute so lovely OHHHHHHHHHHHHH i need him carnally…….. author spreading the seme squirter squad agenda like its a life long mission and i respect that WE NEED MORE OF THAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Author i will die for u

Size difference girl we are all in

the way the author wrote haruki and kentarou’s characters and relationship is so down to earth and mature, like wow the communication and the subtle personal conflict? Theres no big drama, no ups or downs, the mood of the story stayed the same till the end but it wasnt bad? Its just so pleasant and cute and soft and nice especially in the way kentarou fell for haruki, all of it were just panels where he quietly gazes at him, looking so damn enamored the art style is damn gorgeous too wawawawawa i love this story so much kentarou’s chara design is so damn handsome too AGHHHHHHH please let this have a live action drama please its just too damn cute … we as a society truly need more little forest-adjacent bls pls its the cure to mankind