otakulys's manga / #showbiz(4)

The art in this is gorgeous. It makes me want to die. I usually skim sex scenes in yaoi because they're often drawn in weird, awkward ways, but these are absolutely beautiful. I liked this manga, though I do wish there'd been more time for emotional catharsis. In the end, they're only having sex with one another, but it'd be nice if they could work out something more honest. They clearly both love one another but just can't say it. This is just one moment in their lives, though. I think eventually they'll come to a healthier place. At least they're devoted to one another. I would have given it a five if there'd been an emotional climax, but the transition was very anticlimactic, like, oh, I'm not gonna break up with him just because you told me. And that's supposed to be his grand gesture. I think a lot of people are overreacting with their hate, but that's okay. I can see how this sort of story might not work for them. And honestly, it wasn't as satisfying for me either, because they just keep going around pretending, even if they both know they love one another. I do like the glimpses of the gay bar where they met and gay culture like that, though. I wish more yaoi focused on groups of gay friends and that whole scene.

Eh... I like the concept here a lot, and there were many things that I wish were more common themes in yaoi. But I can't get over what a shit the seme is. Plus, things were kind of rushed and all over the place, or way too convenient. The seme was a dick from the start, though, and just because the uke was counting on that doesn't undo it. He never apologized or anything. For that, I'd rate it at a three. But there were other things I did like, so I guess a 3.5, rounded up to 4.

I feel like this is one of those stories where I need to wait until it's all out so that it doesn't stress me out and depress me. I hope the way the main romance unfolds is satisfying. I hate straight guy goes gay stuff, but it's clear that's where this is going, so I'm gonna try to push the feelings aside. It could end up being great. The art is unusual and pretty. I just hope it doesn't go through endless crap with a rushed conclusion where they're together in the final chapter or few pages.

Why does it say completed? It's on the second volume, so maybe they just didn't switch it over. Anyway, I love a sweet and self-controlled alpha. He didn't want to hurt the uke at all, even with the rut part where he tells him to stay away because he doesn't know what he might do. I really like those "fighting the urge" tropes from the alpha side, where they try to be kind and responsible. Also, the cousin is hot. It's weird to me that cousin incest is so normal and accepted in Japan but... whatever. It's just fiction anyway. I need to go back and read it more carefully, but I'll do that when chapter nine comes out.