otakulys's manga / #heartbreaking(9)

Itou-san (KURAKA Sui)

Complete | KURAKA Sui | 2015 released

I love this one. I need to write a full review for it, but it's great to find something dark without being completely heartbreaking. It's incredibly sad and depressing, but there's a satisfying nature to the conclusion.

Suimenka

Complete | Harada | 2000 released

UGH. Heartbreaking and beautiful. It shows the shortsighted, selfish way a person can look at love, even to the detriment of those around them. It's so painful because he realizes what he's done way after the fact, but now it's probably too late to fix. I mean, I'm gonna go ahead and continue this in my mind, where they end up having a threeway relationship, and everyone is happy. Yeah, there we go. Haha. Also, that first sex scene was brutally hot. Holy crap.

Ashita Shinu

Complete | akane sora, akizuki ichiha, anthology, aoi aki, aruku, kai (甲斐), mayama rika, otono awo, yuryi | 2000 released

Very sad, some more than others. I think this anthology showed strengths and weaknesses among the mangaka involved. Short stories can be challenging, writing something satisfying that fills in the blanks and makes sense in such a limited amount of space. The first story broke my heart into a million pieces. I was ugly crying and my cat came and forced me to hold him, which made me cry harder, so there's that. I was super bummed to see that mangaka has yet to produce anything else. I hope that just means she's new and we'll see a lot more from her in the future. Several stories were a little brief and rushed, but the ones that hit you hit you hard. Definitely a sweet but very heartbreaking anthology. Obviously, haha. But it was a good kind of sad. It felt real and emotional. The stronger stories, at least.

Kodomo no Kamisama

Complete | Misu Shinya | 2000 released

I shouldn't have read this when I'm sick and sleep deprived. It would have hit me hard anyway, but it was particularly brutal now. So sad, but very sweet. I cried really hard, and I'm still kind of crying. Honestly, I started crying the moment she revealed why the others didn't know her. I knew how it was gonna end. Very sad, but sweet at the same time. Heartbreaking, but there's that little glimmer of love that never left, even if he doesn't remember.

Zon BL

Ongoing | kabashima rirako; koinu hayate; natsume kumo; nitako; hagi; yatsume seiji | 2000 released

I knew what to expect, and I read it anyway. Now I'm ugly crying and trying not to sob. This is such a beautiful, tragic story. They just loved each other so much. The back and forth from when their lives were happy and their futures were ahead of them just made it all that much more painful. I just hope there's a heaven for things like this. In a fictional world, we can decide for ourselves that they're together again in death.

Yokosu Inu, Mekuru Yoru

Ongoing | Nobara Aiko | 2000 released

Noooooo, update soon, please! I so rarely find manga that truly scratches that hurt/comfort itch. I crave this sort of thing. It's so dark and beautiful and messed up. It made me cry, but in just the right way. I'm not sure what to expect in the future, but I really hope that there's an update soon. I'm worried this has been abandoned completely, since it's been a while. There are so many things I love about this story. I wish there were more like it out there. At the same time, I wish that love triangles didn't have to end in someone "choosing." Why can't he be with both of them? They're all fucked up anyway. They're all so damaged, especially the ukes. You can't entirely blame them for doing stupid, selfish things, given the way they've been taught to survive. Anyway, I'm going to die if this isn't updated.

Shii-chan

Complete | avogado6 | 2000 released

I mean, I knew what it was about and I still read it, so that's on me. Definitely made me cry. Poor girl. I get that the ending could go either way, with her actually being a ghost and her just being a hallucination. Maybe it's a mix of the two, that she's lingering even though her friend can't actually see her. Mostly based on the line about how happy she must be in heaven to have someone on Earth who loves her so much. Yeah... I guess that makes sense, so I suppose it does have that supernatural element, unless it's more of a metaphor. Either way.

Natsujikan

Complete | Kunieda Saika | 2000 released

One of my favorite authors, but this collection never gets less depressing. I miss when there was tons of new stuff from her, but honestly, most of it does fall either on the crack comedy side or the heartbreaking side. The times when it's in between are few. But when it works, it really works.

My Childhood Friend Was a God

Complete | Ruru (menten watagashi) | 2019 released

Definitely heartbreaking but not hopeless. He's always with him, and one day he'll die too, and maybe they'll be together. There must be a special ending for a person made exclusively for that god, so I imagine they'll be with each other after death. It definitely made me cry, though. Loving someone who you know will be gone soon is a painful thing. The comments made it sound like the story was way more dark and depressing than it was, though. It was sad and hurt, but I think eventually he'll go on to have a normal life and know that his best friend and first love is watching out for him.