otakulys's manga / #crossdressing(11)

Tasogare wa dare

Complete | Kitahata Akeno | 2000 released

I liked it up to the rushed ending. I felt like it could have done well with a bittersweet ending, but it was ultimately like "oh hey, I guess everything is fine now!"

Hatsukoi (kazuki Rai)

Complete | kazuki rai | 2016 released

Aw, very sweet so far. His cute little face when he's so proud of that C because he knows he worked his hardest. I just want to squeeze him to death. Honestly, I'm pretty over the "girl I was in love with was actually a boy" thing, but I like the characters enough to see past that. They're both complex and original, which counters out the cliche a bit. I'm looking forward to the following chapters.

Ikujinashi No Spectator

Complete | yamamoto ataru | 2015 released

That was... a very odd story. Kind of cute, but definitely weird. I liked the second one more because there was no rape in it. I like elements of the first one, but nonconsent isn't erased by future consent, and it bugs me. But whatever, the author clearly has a thing for very odd love triangles. The manga treats some stuff too lightly, but what else is new when it comes to BL? It doesn't surprise me, but I still don't like it. Anyway, it was entertaining, and I did like some of the cute twists on certain tropes. Everyone was an asshole in the first story, so at least they were more likable in the second.

Smells Like Green Spirit

Complete | Nagai Saburou | 2011 released

UGH. GOD, MY HEART. My face hurts from crying. I wanted so badly for them to be best friends forever. Regardless of what Kirino chose. The fact that they never saw each other again kills me. So heartbreaking. But their friendship was so beautiful and important. I'm glad they had it at all. Man, this manga was brilliant and tragic. You never see yaoi that really tackles the challenges of being gay in Japan, or just in general. It comes with so much baggage, navigating the good and bad, deciding whether or not to live a lie. This story really explores all of the outcomes based on different decisions and circumstances. My heart hurt so much by the end, knowing that not all of them would have the happy endings they deserved, but this was so well done, and so unusual. Typically, realistic seems to mean everyone dies or something, which honestly isn't realistic at all. It isn't all misery and despair. There are moments of hope, and moments of sadness. It may not have been perfect, but there's always more living to do. And it's never too late, really. Let's hope Kirino eventually finds the life that's right for him. Another thing I loved was the emphasis on friendship. It's so rare to have two gay male characters (though Kirino may have been transgender) without the two of them having romantic or sexual feelings for one another in yaoi. I really appreciated that they just loved each other platonically. They were best friends, which is very important, and romance didn't enter into that. It feels like we're so often told that romantic love is the most important, but I don't think that was the case here at all. Familial love, the love that comes with friendship, even self love. They're all so critical to happiness. "I'm sure there'll be a lot of people there... like us." That line broke my heart knowing that Kirino chooses to deny himself. It also hurts just knowing how isolated and scary it is for them, being gay, in such a small and homophobic community. The fact that they loved one another so much and were best friends like that... it just breaks my heart. The choices they made meant they couldn't be together, and that wasn't fair. That they'd even have to make those choices, to live the truth or to live a lie. They helped one another survive, and they never got to see each other again. Despite how much this manga killed me, I'm glad I read it. It really was beautiful, despite being so sad. I wish there'd been a more hopeful ending, but I enjoyed the good times when they were there. I'd love to read more just like this, only with them all being happy together in the end.

Houkago Edge

Complete | muno | 2014 released

Aww, very sweet. Two things I really liked about this: you never see blackmail with sweet or innocent intentions in yaoi, so it was so nice to see it not result in an excuse for rape; and the seme sorts never seem to really apologize like this, a genuine realization that they pushed too much. There are some typical yaoi things about it, the pushy stuff in general, but it's a sweet little story. Things are gonna be tough sometimes, but at least he doesn't have to hide himself so aggressively. I would like to see more of these guys. Very cute little story.

Twitter ni Ageta o Matometeimasu

Ongoing | Etori114 | 2019 released

I clicked it because I was curious and sort of weirded out by the tags. I've never seen "ecchi" and "shounen ai" in the same genre labels before. It was... kind of what it said? Short, random, weird. A guy wants his best friend to do him, best friend just wants to look at him and jerk off. ...Kay.

Shitarana Pixiv Stories

Ongoing | Shitarana | 2019 released

This is kind of...odd. But also unusual in a positive way. It moves very quickly, and the art is all right but not gorgeous. I almost never read het, but this is actually kind of interesting, like in a gender fluid sort of way. That first story, though... I thought there'd be more yuri, but it was just one weird, random oneshot.

Yorimichi (KAZUKI Rai)

Complete | KAZUKI Rai | 2000 released

Awwwwww. I'm with everyone else: this needs to be longer! You can't leave it like that! It's so sweet and touching, and I want to see these two happy and growing together. I want to see more BL and such actually tackle the family and society issues. So much of it either glosses over it or resolves it way too easily. I want to see people learning and changing, discussions about why they're scared to be openly gay, etc. I feel like 99% of the time that's even addressed, the story has a sad or bittersweet ending. I just don't get why we can't see more of the hard stuff without a character choosing to just give up who they are to make their families happy or whatever. But yes, I love this, and I wish there was more. Alas.

Boku To

Complete | kishi torajirou | 2000 released

I read it even though I hate sad things, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. It's sad, sure, and it'd be nice if it showed people with their second loves, having a happy ending. But I dunno. someone said 8 is the last chapter, but it says it's still going, so I guess we'll see. Chapter six made me cry. Poor baby. I also was confused a lot because the boys all look really similar. Sometimes it was clear that one of the boys was the same in different stories, but sometimes one would look the same but say or do things that suggested it was a different boy, so I don't freaking know. Sad little slice of heartache but there's still hope. They're young, so you know they'll find a guy who actually loves them someday.

Crossdressing Boy and Valentine's Day

Complete | Shinagawa mikuzu | 2019 released
2021-01-14 03:19 marked

Lol, I dunno, kinda cute. It's just... what's with all of these one page manga on here? Does it really merit its own page and everything? Still, it's an amusing little snapshot regarding gay pairings and heteronormativity.