This was a read full of dramatic plot twists and a lot of time skips, I did not expect this kind of story... But I loved it, for sure.
It felt very new to me, honestly, a peculiar and unique experience. I did have my doubts, that they DO look a lot like each other, but I brushed it off, because that's what sometimes happens unintentionally if you have a particular drawing style you want to stick to. But when even Sungman's mom mentioned it, I knew it was on purpose. I had so many theories, many of them were mainly because of how Sun's eyes changed every single time to red, when he went berserk, I honestly started questioning so many things because of it... That's why I was a bit mad at the creator, frankly said, for deceiving me like that... I know it was for a dramatic effect but it made me question so many things, I even thought at some point what if he's not human and instead a cyborg that was made by his parents in order for Sungman to have someone protecting him and sometimes he malfunctions and goes apeshit. You know, those kinds of theories.
But anyways, I can't say I was surprised by everything, but a big chunk of the ending was a huge plot twist. It was a sad story, for sure, very fucked up. I wanted to take my anger and frustrations out on these characters so much... I'm not even gonna name them, they don't deserve that. But the way Sun took care of all of them was pretty funny, I liked it. Oh, and how Geumsoo ended up in a wheelchair at the end? I hoped for that and did kind of predict it, so I was happy about it, but felt bad at the same time. I know he's a horrible person that on the surface doesn't deserve sympathy for the things he's done. That's for sure. But I just couldn't help but feel bad when I imagined him going through everything Sungman went through. And possibly much more, because of his inferiority complex and terrible parents with their lot of complexes. I'm still human at the end of the day, I felt bad. But I guess he reaped what he sowed, as grim as it is.
By the way, how did every single adult know that Sungman is adopted but not Sungman himself? I guess he just never asked questions and they didn't speak in front of him, but damn, that's some odd chances right there.
The way that Sun would only see Sungman no matter what, it made me happy for the connection they have. But it again made me question his behavior, I suppose it's the wannabe psychologist in me. My take on it is that he had never lived a nice and satisfying life before, because no matter what, his father was a chaotic mess all the time and his mother died on the day they took family photos. So pretty much, a terrible life, filled with nothing but growing up by yourself, being called a curse upon the family from your own family. Though he didn't seem to take it to heart, he was very much not registering it, at all. So he must have had some mental problems ever since he was born. Or perhaps the car crash caused some disturbances in his brain? He was just a baby when it happened after all.
So, his mundane pattern was broken when one day his father died and in his hands, there laid a paper. He was curious, he picked it up. He read his adoption certificate top to bottom and found out what he had been missing for 18 whole years. And he went where his brother was studying, finding him and the rest is history. So it definitely makes sense why Sungman is the only thing in his eyes and brain. I also feel like there is a significant meaning to the fact that he would always draw stick figures and only imagine stick figure scenes, instead of actual thoughts. He had this very childish way of comprehending what was going on around him, and as the creator said, he didn't have a sense of guilt, at all. But there would be moments, where he would snap and go berserk, fully trying to kill someone. So, he's a tough case, alright. My opinion is that since he grew up having to take care of himself, he kept himself sane, safe and happy by adapting to this innocent, childish thought process, taking life easy and humming through the hardships. I imagine it would be like how people become littles, in order to protect themselves, their brains adapt to a happy go lucky child like way of thinking. This way they're safe in their own reality. Though, of course, his case is way different. Because there would be certain moments where he would give in to his murderous thoughts. He still drew the stick figures but he made them bloody with a red pen and severed their limbs. Pretty brutal. He knows what he's doing, he's not clueless, he has a plan and he commits to it. The difference is that his perception of what is happening around him and what he is doing is not normal. He doesn't view it as something bad, instead it's just an action that was taken by him. No sense of guilt, even when he himself took responsibility and turned himself in. Though, I have a feeling that it may have been solely in order to get his revenge on Geumsoo too. Though he could've done it in a much more peaceful and discreet way, so I'm not sure. But the gist of it, he knows what he's doing but it kind of gets filtered in order for him to continue living safely and happily in his little bubble. A defense mechanism of sorts. And Sungman is Sun's savior too, because with him, he can act however he likes and doesn't get judged. He knows he's in safe hands and he's happy, as well as pretty content that he's found his meaning in life, his long lost puzzle piece.
As for Sungman, he's obviously normal, he understands what Sungman is going through and wants to help him as well as stay by his side, so he took upon learning about the human psychology, in order to help his little twin brother and people with conditions like his. They are indeed a very interesting duo. The oldest is physically disabled, the youngest mentally. But they're always there for each other, after 18 painstakingly long years apart.
Side note, when Sun's adoptive mother first picked up Sungman but put him down, when she found out he has a disability, and then picked his twin brother up, because they look the same, it was honestly very disgusting to me. They separated them and gave absolutely no regards to what is going to happen to his disabled brother, who very much needs a lot of care and attention for him to grow up happy and healthy. So when she died but her husband and Sun survived, I honestly felt like it was the universe just telling her that it was a messed up thing to do.
I know it probably doesn't actually have a connection, but that's what I like to think. Though seriously, don't separate twins. If you want to adopt one of them, adopt both, don't separate siblings either. It can have a terrible psychological effect on them later on in life.
Welp, I have said my two cents. I picked this manhwa up only because someone said it was similar in some aspects to Weak Hero, I just really wanted to take my mind off this series, because of how sad I got after I finished it. Honestly, I have grown so attached, I remember the names and back stories of every single significant character, the only ones that were actually showed. And I still vividly remember most events from these 262 chapters. So yeah, it's rough for me right now, I am depressed because of it, but this manhwa was able to take my mind off of it for a bit and it was pretty good. I did not expect something so psychological, I thought it would be physical, just like in Weak Hero. But I liked it nonetheless.
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