D.Y.I's manga / #Manhua/Manhwa(15)

At first I did not like this manhwa ONE BIT. In fact, the first time I was reading it, I dropped it, because I hate smut. I still hate it but oh well, I really wanted to see the story for myself. Truth is, the only reason I even decided to read it is because I saw a video on Youtube about it. I didn't watch the video but instead jsut read the manhwa, since I had always been curious about the actual story, cuz it is one of the most popular BLs out there. Which is.... I don't know why tbh... I mean, it was good but nothing out of the ordinary when it comes to the plot and storyline. It was just fine. Pretty interesting actually. I guess it became extremely famous because it was one of the earlier ones and had a ton of well-drawn smut in it. Overall, I hated Jiwon (Alex) at first. He was a total douchebag and a jerk. He didn't love the bottom ml (forgot his name) at all for half of the story and ml was head over heels for him, doing anything and everything in his power to satisfy Alex. Alex, on the other hand, was demanding, toxic, abusive at some points. He got jealous multiple times and took it out on Jiwoo (I think that was the ml's name). It was honestly hard to watch, because Jiwoo hated every second of it. But kept going back to Alex which infuriated me. But finally, after Jiwoo left Alex for good (which I was rooting for since the beginning lmao), Alex found out he actually loves him. I blamed Alex a lot throughout the story. But then his background and life up until that point came up on the screen and my sympathy took over. I actually understood why he was the way he was (aka toxic, distant, a jerk, not able to express love, scared of loving and thus toxic and cold), which made me care more about their relationship. What I absolutely loved was the way he changed for his love (after he was finally honest with himself and confessed, almost at the end of the story) He became the sweetest person walking the Earth, he was ready to do anything and everything (just like Jiwoo till the end) for Jiwoo. It was honestly the best and most adorable sight ever. I am rooting for their relationship, it's so wholesome and cute. About the smut... Well, there is absolutely no shadow of a doubt that it is drawn GORGEOUSLY because the creator really took care of every little detail and panel. It doesn't change the fact that I hate smut, I still do, but it was drawn and shown beautifully and truthfully nonetheless.

To be honest, the ending felt a tiiiiny bit rushed to me but at the same time, I absolutely loved it. Cho Ayeon... This guy... Having really conflicted feelings towards him, he definitely liked Jaerim and tried to get Yuri out of the picture by making him look at him and Jaerim making out but... This guy, out of desperation for all sorts of reasons, almost raped Jaerim.... It was quite disgusting but at the same time damn, the drama I love how much Yuri and Jaerim cherish each other, the manhwa took a HUGE turn at some point. It was a lovey-dovey chase, because Jaerim did NOT like Yuri at first. And then... Damn, it became dark and so many things happened at once, Yuri had a serious mental trauma/illness, Jaerim loved him endlessly, Ayeon almost raped Jaerim, we got to know more about the bitch Soyeon.. That made all of this happen btw, so glad she stayed a villain till the end. Ayeon got his "redemption arc", don't know how I feel about him still, pretty cute tho (aaaand he's gorgeous, so sad the love triangle I was expecting turned into this messy plot... But it was interesting nonetheless)

I still haven't given the original story a review, even though I read it years ago. And started it way more times than just once. It was so good but I'm gonna focus on this little CIT special. So. It was adorable, it made me go through the happy memories of reading the original all over again. I had major second lead syndrome, because of the drama but in the manhwa I couldn't say I hated Jung like I did in the drama. In fact, I liked him a lot in the manhwa, he was quite the dreamy sociopath. But seeing Inho being able to move on and lead a happy life as well.. It warmed my heart and calmed my soul, honestly, after experiencing the MAJOR 2nd lead syndrome back in 2018, when I first watched the drama. I still haven't forgotten it, probably never will. I was about to start re-reading the original CIT manhwa, for, like, the 999th time but I saw this special below and JUST HAD TO. It is adorable and has actually come out around the time I read the original, so that's cute. I need to go and give it a review but I may re-read it first, we will see. It's kind of.... a long read... Because I'm the type of person to spend at least 10 mins on one chapter, soaking in all the different details, expressions and gestures, as well as all the words they say in every single panel, so it may take even more than 20 mins sometimes, that's why it is a really long process for me... And yet, after finishing it, I re-read more than 100 chapters and stopped, so I may re-read the whole thing this time and give it my raw and.... Fresh opinion. The fact that I remember all of the major characters' names, it's kinda funny. Literally every major character is ingrained into my memory, that's how much of a core memory this manhwa was for me. Since I have read way too many mangas, manhwas and manhuas to count, it's just bizarre to remember the names. BTW, I would have also been really happy to see Bora and Eun Taek get married T_T But I'm happy at least Inho's relationship with his sister seems to have slightly improved as well.... I think, judging based on the one panel we got with him in it. I loved this and the originial too, they bring back only good memories and just make me feel like I'm back in the day, when it was kind of, just a bit simpler.

This manhwa made me feel all sorts of feelings. I smile, I laughed, I cried, I was even a bit scared at some points, because of how unpredictable some situations were... But overall, I absolutely loved this story, it was warm and absolutely delightful, light and just... Pleasant to read, I didn't want to put it down, because of how captivating it was :") It made me feel hopeful, that someday, I would find the right person for myself and that he would be able to love me through our hardships together, not fighting alone. I jumped in excitement at some points, then my heart plummeted to my stomach at chapter 39... I felt betrayed, but it seems that I wasn't... Lim Segye was just another victim to a misunderstanding, that actually deserves love and acceptance. These two characters were portrayed so well, it made me feel like I was reading about actual people. I wouldn't question it if someone told me that they were written by two separate people that actually went through these struggles, that's how realistic it was. The whole romance was realistic and for that, it was fresh and something extraordinary. I loved it. I really did... I am left, feeling content, happy and my heart just a tad bit heavy that it ended. If that doesn't tell you how good of a story it was, then I don't know what could.

It was amazing... I read it in 3 days, I started late at night and finished it in the afternoon. It was worth it to binge read this, I absolutely loved it.... I am honestly left speechless, I can't even talk about it right now, because of the complicated emotions it's made me feel. It made me happy, sad, anxious, depressed, delighted, light-hearted and so much more. It kind of lessened the feeling of existential dread I have had the past few weeks. You know, like you don't know what you're doing with your life, even though you're obviously over-thinking it. I just thoroughly enjoyed it, it was so funny and witty, it made me long for a special connection with that one soulmate we have all been waiting for. Naturally, soul mates don't have to be romantic, I think I may have met them in the forms of my best friends, but anyway, I still long for this connection they have. I believe I will find it one day, someone who embodies all the characteristics I adore. I honestly started reading this just because I had seen it a couple of times before and decided to finally give it a try, I also really wanted to finish something long and expand my knowledge of good reads lol I thought I would feel really empty, just like how I feel most of the time after reading something nice and finishing it. But surprisingly, it left me content, although also a bit sad it's over now. I watched their relationship grow and looked over their character development, it felt like watching your kids grow up, I feel satisfied. The relationships between the four main characters was adorable, it really warmed my heart. I could go on a two hour rant about how cute Doyoon Ha and Chowon Yun's relationship is, but I digress (I still don't know if I'm using this term correctly, anyways, I may check later, if I don't forget) I don't really know why I'm writing all these reviews when I never actually post them and just keep them for myself, but it kind of feels nice, it gives me a sense of completion after reading something, as I have a way to get all of my complicated emotions out. I can also look back and remind myself how much a simple read made me feel and go through. So that's nice, it's a diary. God, I hope they don't close this site down, cuz then I'm screwed, my reviews would go to waste :") Happy thoughts, happy thoughts But yeah, overall, a very good read, I enjoyed it, can't wait to start something else and continue on my project of getting educated on stories~ (it really develops my psyche, honestly)

This was actually a very refreshing read, I enjoyed. I must say, at times it was a bit.... absurd.... with how she was literally scared of the guy for no strong reason, like, yeah, he may have been a cold person back in school and he told you off twice, because he couldn't really bring himself to express his feelings, so I get being pissed off by the attitude or not liking his guts, or just being uncomfortable around him. But scared??? And that didn't exactly stop until a later part of the story, even though he had already confessed and done great things for her, she was still a bit afraid of him? It felt really rushed, I guess that's what happens when you can't an eternity for a project, but yeah. Otherwise, it was pretty cute, fluffy, very warm and just easy to get through, there were literally no heavy themes, or at least they weren't really delved into, I guess. Also, get you a man like Gunho, the ML, because damnnn is he whipped WHOO He would turn the world over for her, honestly. I really loved the romance in this manhwa, it was just adorable and couple goals, amiright It made me want a Gunho for myself AAAAHHHH He was gentle, loving, caring, overprotective, thoughtful, handsome, successful, proud of her and their relationship, showed her off at every opportunity, went a bit too fast at times, but I guess she was okay with it at some point (I wouldn't but oh, well, not my relationship to worry about) It was a bit weird to me how their kids were literally their little versions... Um... How in the hell did the genes end up like that, I don't know, what are the odds???? THEY WERE IDENTICAL TO THE PARENTS AND WERE THE SAME GENDERS AS THE PARENT THEY TOOK OVER But anyways. Yeah, I wouldn't reread it really, because it wasn't a unique story per say, but it was fun for a quick read and something to warm your heart.

Okay, listen. I have read this SO many times, mostly just starting it and dropping it for the nth time but I did complete it wholy twice and lord... It was during my "don't write a review, just give it a rating" phase and yeah, I came back just to write a review. So. A question I had every single time I read this before finally ingraining it into my memory, was did Jungwoo or whatever his name was actually rape Chonwoo (I think that was his name). And yes... Yes, he did... So it was pretty understandable how they couldn't ever go back to the way they were, like, Jungwoo, are you stupid??? I couldn't believe his nerve, honestly. The ending made me feel both sad and content, it was a very nice ending, the nicest it could have been, actually, without dropping the realistic aspect. But boy, did I take a trip down guilt lane after seeing Jungwoo's grievous expression... At least he finally got the memo and left our poor boy alone... Honestly, I don't know how he is such a magnet for giant buff strong and possessive handsome men, but yeah, it seems to be working. I swear, so many of the characters in here are gay, like, damn. I am glad most people got a happy ending tho, our boy even got engaged!!! I'm glad he overcame his trauma and suffering, the mother understood in the end too and even begged Jungwoo to just leave and never come back again (ouch) I don't know what else to really say, it's surprising how much I remember but yeah, I can pretty much tell most of the story off the top of my head, it left a huge impact on me as a person and it was a very nice read. It kept me entertained and really just made me want to punch some specific characters and comfort others. Take a guess who I'm talking about, as if it isn't obvious. Something my BFF pointed out was how the necks and bodies were just so incredibly huge and thick, which, yeah, that was a bit weird. Their phisique was so unique, honestly, I didn't mind it until she pointed it out. I still liked it, it's just that I paid attention to that detail from them on. But I really like the art nonetheless. Overall, it's actually become a core memory of mine, I won't forget it very easily, which means a lot. Why a core memory? I just remember reading it during my happiest, most carefree days. Just like midnight poppyland, yes, I still remember the title but I never finished it. I think about it from time to time, it's been more than 2 years... Anyways, that was it, I'm glad I finally gave my opinion about this manhwa

I decided to give this a review finally right after writing the review of the original manhwa. It's definitely been a long time since I read it, but I remember it quite vividly. And I must say, I thought I would feel weird seeing Jungwoo's side story in a parallel universe, where it was all just a horrible nightmare he was having and he never hurt Chonwoo, he never raped him and instead they have been in a healthy sexual and romantic relationship for a long time. It made me feel a bit sad, I wanted everyone to be happy in the end, especially since he finally changed for the better... However, I'm well aware that still wouldn't possibly excuse or justify his past behavior, I just wished he would find his own happiness tho.. Spending years obsessing over a single person and then having to accept you would never be able to turn back time and have the relationship with them you once did, back in the day, because you, yourself, ruined it. Quite heart-breaking. But oh well, actions have consequences, I can't be too soft on him after all the shenanigans. I'm sure he will someday heal and find someone else. Until then at least the Jungwoo in the parallel universe is happy and healthy. Kyujin was the name of the other male lead, right? I think so, I just remembered it, I had completely forgotten it until writing this review. Their story was actually quite adorable, I'm glad Chonwoo found the right person for himself (and it was some damn luck, if Kyujin himself hadn't made some effort to get to now Chonwoo, Chonwoo would have been left lonely and hurt all this time. Their relationship is adorable, I have always liked it. I don't remember much except for how horny everyone is in this specific extra. It's NOT how it was in the original LMAO

It was honestly quite traumatising, very heavy read, I wouldn't reccommend unless you are fully aware of the shit you're getting into... I didn't feel like reading the extra chapter, I stopped at 68, where the story had technically ended but the side stories hadn't. So, my thoughts. Welp, it wasn't the best in my opinion, frankly said, it was at times extremely confusing and then it just clicks and makes sense, but at the same time still doesn't... It could have been the language barrier and how even translated a lot of the content just wasn't comprehensible, you would get lost in the endless dialogue between the two characters that are themselves trying to figure out their feelings... It was a mess, I skipped some parts just because of how confused I got, it was tiring reading through all of it, I just wanted to finally see what it was about. The art was pretty nice, although different from what I usually indulge in. Again, not bad but also not the best... I would give it 3.5 stars if I could, but I can't, so 3 it is.

This was a read full of dramatic plot twists and a lot of time skips, I did not expect this kind of story... But I loved it, for sure. It felt very new to me, honestly, a peculiar and unique experience. I did have my doubts, that they DO look a lot like each other, but I brushed it off, because that's what sometimes happens unintentionally if you have a particular drawing style you want to stick to. But when even Sungman's mom mentioned it, I knew it was on purpose. I had so many theories, many of them were mainly because of how Sun's eyes changed every single time to red, when he went berserk, I honestly started questioning so many things because of it... That's why I was a bit mad at the creator, frankly said, for deceiving me like that... I know it was for a dramatic effect but it made me question so many things, I even thought at some point what if he's not human and instead a cyborg that was made by his parents in order for Sungman to have someone protecting him and sometimes he malfunctions and goes apeshit. You know, those kinds of theories. But anyways, I can't say I was surprised by everything, but a big chunk of the ending was a huge plot twist. It was a sad story, for sure, very fucked up. I wanted to take my anger and frustrations out on these characters so much... I'm not even gonna name them, they don't deserve that. But the way Sun took care of all of them was pretty funny, I liked it. Oh, and how Geumsoo ended up in a wheelchair at the end? I hoped for that and did kind of predict it, so I was happy about it, but felt bad at the same time. I know he's a horrible person that on the surface doesn't deserve sympathy for the things he's done. That's for sure. But I just couldn't help but feel bad when I imagined him going through everything Sungman went through. And possibly much more, because of his inferiority complex and terrible parents with their lot of complexes. I'm still human at the end of the day, I felt bad. But I guess he reaped what he sowed, as grim as it is. By the way, how did every single adult know that Sungman is adopted but not Sungman himself? I guess he just never asked questions and they didn't speak in front of him, but damn, that's some odd chances right there. The way that Sun would only see Sungman no matter what, it made me happy for the connection they have. But it again made me question his behavior, I suppose it's the wannabe psychologist in me. My take on it is that he had never lived a nice and satisfying life before, because no matter what, his father was a chaotic mess all the time and his mother died on the day they took family photos. So pretty much, a terrible life, filled with nothing but growing up by yourself, being called a curse upon the family from your own family. Though he didn't seem to take it to heart, he was very much not registering it, at all. So he must have had some mental problems ever since he was born. Or perhaps the car crash caused some disturbances in his brain? He was just a baby when it happened after all. So, his mundane pattern was broken when one day his father died and in his hands, there laid a paper. He was curious, he picked it up. He read his adoption certificate top to bottom and found out what he had been missing for 18 whole years. And he went where his brother was studying, finding him and the rest is history. So it definitely makes sense why Sungman is the only thing in his eyes and brain. I also feel like there is a significant meaning to the fact that he would always draw stick figures and only imagine stick figure scenes, instead of actual thoughts. He had this very childish way of comprehending what was going on around him, and as the creator said, he didn't have a sense of guilt, at all. But there would be moments, where he would snap and go berserk, fully trying to kill someone. So, he's a tough case, alright. My opinion is that since he grew up having to take care of himself, he kept himself sane, safe and happy by adapting to this innocent, childish thought process, taking life easy and humming through the hardships. I imagine it would be like how people become littles, in order to protect themselves, their brains adapt to a happy go lucky child like way of thinking. This way they're safe in their own reality. Though, of course, his case is way different. Because there would be certain moments where he would give in to his murderous thoughts. He still drew the stick figures but he made them bloody with a red pen and severed their limbs. Pretty brutal. He knows what he's doing, he's not clueless, he has a plan and he commits to it. The difference is that his perception of what is happening around him and what he is doing is not normal. He doesn't view it as something bad, instead it's just an action that was taken by him. No sense of guilt, even when he himself took responsibility and turned himself in. Though, I have a feeling that it may have been solely in order to get his revenge on Geumsoo too. Though he could've done it in a much more peaceful and discreet way, so I'm not sure. But the gist of it, he knows what he's doing but it kind of gets filtered in order for him to continue living safely and happily in his little bubble. A defense mechanism of sorts. And Sungman is Sun's savior too, because with him, he can act however he likes and doesn't get judged. He knows he's in safe hands and he's happy, as well as pretty content that he's found his meaning in life, his long lost puzzle piece. As for Sungman, he's obviously normal, he understands what Sungman is going through and wants to help him as well as stay by his side, so he took upon learning about the human psychology, in order to help his little twin brother and people with conditions like his. They are indeed a very interesting duo. The oldest is physically disabled, the youngest mentally. But they're always there for each other, after 18 painstakingly long years apart. Side note, when Sun's adoptive mother first picked up Sungman but put him down, when she found out he has a disability, and then picked his twin brother up, because they look the same, it was honestly very disgusting to me. They separated them and gave absolutely no regards to what is going to happen to his disabled brother, who very much needs a lot of care and attention for him to grow up happy and healthy. So when she died but her husband and Sun survived, I honestly felt like it was the universe just telling her that it was a messed up thing to do. I know it probably doesn't actually have a connection, but that's what I like to think. Though seriously, don't separate twins. If you want to adopt one of them, adopt both, don't separate siblings either. It can have a terrible psychological effect on them later on in life. Welp, I have said my two cents. I picked this manhwa up only because someone said it was similar in some aspects to Weak Hero, I just really wanted to take my mind off this series, because of how sad I got after I finished it. Honestly, I have grown so attached, I remember the names and back stories of every single significant character, the only ones that were actually showed. And I still vividly remember most events from these 262 chapters. So yeah, it's rough for me right now, I am depressed because of it, but this manhwa was able to take my mind off of it for a bit and it was pretty good. I did not expect something so psychological, I thought it would be physical, just like in Weak Hero. But I liked it nonetheless.