At first I did not like this manhwa ONE BIT. In fact, the first time I was reading it, I dropped it, because I hate smut. I still hate it but oh well, I really wanted to see the story for myself. Truth is, the only reason I even decided to read it is because I saw a video on Youtube about it. I didn't watch the video but instead jsut read the manhwa, since I had always been curious about the actual story, cuz it is one of the most popular BLs out there. Which is.... I don't know why tbh... I mean, it was good but nothing out of the ordinary when it comes to the plot and storyline. It was just fine. Pretty interesting actually. I guess it became extremely famous because it was one of the earlier ones and had a ton of well-drawn smut in it.
Overall, I hated Jiwon (Alex) at first. He was a total douchebag and a jerk. He didn't love the bottom ml (forgot his name) at all for half of the story and ml was head over heels for him, doing anything and everything in his power to satisfy Alex. Alex, on the other hand, was demanding, toxic, abusive at some points. He got jealous multiple times and took it out on Jiwoo (I think that was the ml's name). It was honestly hard to watch, because Jiwoo hated every second of it. But kept going back to Alex which infuriated me. But finally, after Jiwoo left Alex for good (which I was rooting for since the beginning lmao), Alex found out he actually loves him.
I blamed Alex a lot throughout the story. But then his background and life up until that point came up on the screen and my sympathy took over. I actually understood why he was the way he was (aka toxic, distant, a jerk, not able to express love, scared of loving and thus toxic and cold), which made me care more about their relationship.
What I absolutely loved was the way he changed for his love (after he was finally honest with himself and confessed, almost at the end of the story)
He became the sweetest person walking the Earth, he was ready to do anything and everything (just like Jiwoo till the end) for Jiwoo. It was honestly the best and most adorable sight ever. I am rooting for their relationship, it's so wholesome and cute.
About the smut... Well, there is absolutely no shadow of a doubt that it is drawn GORGEOUSLY because the creator really took care of every little detail and panel. It doesn't change the fact that I hate smut, I still do, but it was drawn and shown beautifully and truthfully nonetheless.
BJ alex