kei_k's manga / #Slice of Life(74)

Some chapters were quite boring, or maybe forced? I dunno, they lacked feelings or something. But I get the feel of the manga. I love how their relationship developed. I fell in love with Chinatsu-san as well. :)

I just wish it were longer, so their back stories were elaborated and we had more sexy scenes. I really appreciated how Sakurai-san was gentle (he even used a condom with lube to prepare him. That's rare but good, because it makes the uke (esp Virgin ones) feel more at ease. I mean, it's kind of awkward when they're just fingered, right? Because the inital reaction is it's disgusting 'coz it's where they excrete.)

My heart hurt so much.. Ugh. I hate Jaein so much! I hate how he turned out... I liked him in the beginning when he cared so much for her, enough to embrace her past.. But when she started helping him, he betrayed her. F! I was really hurt when he decided to have her sell herself again so they can save money and start a new life... But what did he do? He used the money she worked so hard for another woman! She didn't even care how she was being treated badly by the customers. He couldn't accept how dirty she's become when it's actually his fault that she had to do those things against her will. Grrr. About Insu (Cop), I hurt for his wife, too... That moment really hurt... When he vowed that his love won't change even when she no longer had her breasts... Then when they had sex and he saw the scars, he went limp and couldn't get it up anymore... What hurts more was that he 'tested' it with another woman and when he saw that he still could get it up (except in front of her wife), he continued his sexcapades until his wife finally found out... Really... It was so painful when she ahd to send him the photos of him with another girl and when he rushed out to her making excuses like she misunderstood and he didn't love them, it was already too late. If I were his wife, even if he didn't love those girls, the mere fact that he can be satisfied doing it with them when he can no longer do it with me, it would hurt the same. Because I'd feel like he's just forcing himself to be with me.. He says he loves me no matter what and nothing will change, but he betrayed me first. If that were me, I'd rather be alone than stay with him. Ahhh really. This makes me fear reality more. No matter how in love two persons are, there would always be an incident that will test their love. Sometimes, this make them stronger, but a lot of times, it breaks them apart. I really lose faith in men whenever I remember the incidents in this webtoon. It makes me see how a lot of guys really are blinded by lust. I just don't think I could take it. Err. So anyway, this is tragic, but kinda openended. We see SuAe holding onto the two guys whom he loved, but we don't know if she'll live or what. It's unrealistic how she committed all those murders without getting caught but the story itself has realism and it hits the right spots.

I didn't cry but I was really sad and my heart hurt.. If I read this earlier, would've been more emotional, but realizing some things I know now, I find the relationships realistic... And that's why it scares me more. How can I hold on to a love until the end, with both of us wholeheartedly loving? Err.. Anyway, I wanted to know more about how Akari's life went on.. If I were to choose, I guess I like Risa for Takaki bec she's the only one he's been able to be honest with in the end, and she's beey mature. Besides, like he said, he was able to talk with her smoothly. I think their relationship would've really worked out if Takaki wasn't held back by his feelings for Akarri. It's not like he's still in love, but because the feelings he had when he was was pure and serious, he felt like he betrayed humself. But it's called growing up. They both knew they probably wouldn't work out in the future, but in Takako's pure mind, he believed he can do it so he wanted to wait and pursue her. So when Risa said they need not to promise about the future, I had hopes. I liked her decision bec it does not tie them both. If they made a promise, it will be like his feelings for Akari again. I understand this now. For the uncertain, it's better not to make promises. Otherwise, one might fulfill it just for the sake of not breaking the promise even if they don't feel it anymore. As for Kanae, I liked her too, she was innocent and her love was pure, but somehkw, I want her to be with someone else. It's cute for a school romance, but I think she needs a more mature guy to complement her innocence.

Irritating bec of too much miscommunication. I liked the uke's attitude about working things out for their 'forever' though.

I didn't give this a 1 star simply because I didn't like it. You see, even if I really dislike the themes in some stories, I don't necessarily hate them overall especially when I learn a lesson or I see how a character develops to be mature enough. But both stories failed me because aside from not having doki doki feels, they lack proper resolutions. Especially that first story. Ugh. From another POV, I may convince myself and say, "Hey, it's fine! The seme actually loves the uke and it's not like he really cheated on him! He just didn't tell the uke about his ex/friend's problem for his discretion. Besides, they're childhood friends! Of course he'd help him out when he's badly in need of help!" I can totally see that. But you see, the uke wouldn't have known because the seme never really opened up. I mean, from what I've seen in their relationship, it's not like they started dating because the seme liked the uke too. He just took advantage of the uke's feelings and maybe hoped he'd like him too. Just from this, we can see that the uke is happy enough for his unrequited love to be noticed. Being in a relationship with someone you love is already a big leap, so he's actually putting himself down and letting the seme jerk him around. Was he supposed to just wait around for the seme? I mean, he wasn't even vocal about his feelings. The way I see it, the uke always felt like he's just a substitute because of the way the seme made him feel. Was that ring supposed to make up for the seme's lack of expression for his love? Sure, that may be so. But because he made the uke feel left out even after being given that, it's natural to question if it's really okay for him to assume that his love is requited. Err. Complicated feelings. Anyway, it just made me see how communication really makes a big part on how relationships last. You don't have to tell your partner EVERYTHING, especially when it's about another person's confidentiality at stake, but at least have the decency to let him know the general idea or give him assurance. About the second story, I get the gist of what the seme does, but it's ridiculous. I mean, c'mon, it's not like a cheating husband will absolutely stop having an affair if his mistress finds another guy. What's to say he'd just find another woman?! Having the mistress leave him doesn't guarantee he'd come back to the wife. Oh well, personally, I don't think I'd be able to accept him. I'm just not fond of guys sleeping around, even if it was part of his job. If it were in the past, I can accept him (though it will take some time), but if he continues to do it while dating me, no thanks.

Regardless of gender, cheating is still cheating. I disliked the seme and uke for this, but I'm glad Yukari didn't cling to the uke . Most of the points of this manga is for Yukari.