kei_k's manga / #Memory Loss/Alteration(6)

Hmm.. not very satisfied, but it was interesting.. Strangely, I was quite fine when Da In kissed a lot of males, especially vampires. Perhaps because thinking that this is supernatural, I shouldn't expect the normal attachments? Anyway, the most memorable parts would be when Kang Hoo's memory was altered. Seriously, I just get hurt every time I remember and think about it. Like, what if it happens to me in real life? Let's say my lover loses his memory and another girl who likes him take advantage of it and make it so that he'll be her lover while saying bad things about me that'll make him hate me... Like, there's no telling if it'd be like in fiction where somewhere within him, he truly feels our connection. There's no telling if he'd remember me. Usually, in fiction, it's made as if as long as the person truly loves the other, they'll remember him/her no matter what... But I can't even cling on that hope because this is reality and we have no real control over things like that. So anyway, just thinking about seeing my lover with another person, him choosing her over me and even hurts me on her command, I can't help but feel my heart in pain. Like, will he ever remember me? Will he ever come back to me? Until when should I wait for him? Should I continue to lurk around him until he remembers me, even when he chases me out? What if, after I decide to move on and let him live in the present, he regains his memories and want me back? What if by that time, I have already found someone else to treasure? Will I really risk my present to continue the past I couldn't? Or will I live in the present but keep wondering in the future, what could've been if I chose the other? Life is short. There's no telling until when we'll live. If I'd only have a few days to live, with whom shall I spend it with? (Okay, I totally got carried away from the story, but this really just stuck with me.)

It was painful but sweet. Ahh.. What should I do if it were me? Will I really be able to calmly do what Tarou did? It hurt a lot reading this, what more experiencing it. I'm glad Takahiro remained faithful though he was confused. I mean I'm glad he didn't act against his instincts just because it's unusual for him. Like, he thoight he was in love with Tae and only confused his attraction with Tarou bec they looked alike. After all, in his memory, he was straight, so it made more sense that it was Tae he was in love with. I'm glad he followed his heart. But ugh.. Really what if this happened to me and my lover? If he tells me not to spoil anything about thr period he's forgotten, including his lover? It made sense though. Like, even if he's told someone is his lover, it's not like he'd remember all those feelings miraculously..

Ends at 15. Continues to Queens Quality (read @ otakumole)

start: 04/15/19 fin: 04/15/19 I really liked it, but felt like there's still something missing.. Kind of felt like the story and pacing could've been executed better.. Anyway, still got pretty satisfied. :D