kei_k's manga / #Jerk Seme(5)

I didn't give this a 1 star simply because I didn't like it. You see, even if I really dislike the themes in some stories, I don't necessarily hate them overall especially when I learn a lesson or I see how a character develops to be mature enough. But both stories failed me because aside from not having doki doki feels, they lack proper resolutions. Especially that first story. Ugh. From another POV, I may convince myself and say, "Hey, it's fine! The seme actually loves the uke and it's not like he really cheated on him! He just didn't tell the uke about his ex/friend's problem for his discretion. Besides, they're childhood friends! Of course he'd help him out when he's badly in need of help!" I can totally see that. But you see, the uke wouldn't have known because the seme never really opened up. I mean, from what I've seen in their relationship, it's not like they started dating because the seme liked the uke too. He just took advantage of the uke's feelings and maybe hoped he'd like him too. Just from this, we can see that the uke is happy enough for his unrequited love to be noticed. Being in a relationship with someone you love is already a big leap, so he's actually putting himself down and letting the seme jerk him around. Was he supposed to just wait around for the seme? I mean, he wasn't even vocal about his feelings. The way I see it, the uke always felt like he's just a substitute because of the way the seme made him feel. Was that ring supposed to make up for the seme's lack of expression for his love? Sure, that may be so. But because he made the uke feel left out even after being given that, it's natural to question if it's really okay for him to assume that his love is requited. Err. Complicated feelings. Anyway, it just made me see how communication really makes a big part on how relationships last. You don't have to tell your partner EVERYTHING, especially when it's about another person's confidentiality at stake, but at least have the decency to let him know the general idea or give him assurance. About the second story, I get the gist of what the seme does, but it's ridiculous. I mean, c'mon, it's not like a cheating husband will absolutely stop having an affair if his mistress finds another guy. What's to say he'd just find another woman?! Having the mistress leave him doesn't guarantee he'd come back to the wife. Oh well, personally, I don't think I'd be able to accept him. I'm just not fond of guys sleeping around, even if it was part of his job. If it were in the past, I can accept him (though it will take some time), but if he continues to do it while dating me, no thanks.

start: 06/29/19 up: 06/29/19 ~ ch 32 fin: 01/12/21 ch 71+extra

1st read: 07/03/18 UGH. I wanted tto like it... Really... But I couldn't like it til the end... Sure there are a lot of sh*tty seme who do similar things to their uke, but this time, I just really couldn't stand Suzaka... Well, Minami as well. I disliked the seme with a passion, but I didn't like the uke that much either. I really thought I'd come to like him though, when he acted haughty in the hotel room after the party.. But guess what? He so easily gave in. Tsk! I'm so triggered. Perhaps my mood affected this rating as well. Meh.

start/end: 07/06/20 OKAY. I wanted to avoid reading this because of the comments, but I got ahead and read it anyway. This made me feel a lot of mixed feelings and I just couldn't keep up with the thoughts in my head. But I'll try. CHEATING? Well, to be exact, nobody really cheated here since Kei and Naru never confirmed their relationship. It mostly seemed like Naru was so used to having Kei by his side that he decided to "use" him to have sex with whenever he wanted (though ofc, we know that Kei actually had a part in this, by manipulating Naru into being that way...). Nonetheless, they had mutual feelings which Naru just didn't seem to realize 'cos he's simply confident that Kei is his, even if he doesn't say anything. But... I have to admit, it still didn't sit well with me for Kei to have sex with Mizuse just to incite Naru. I get it, of course. He wanted to play something "interesting" just as Naru demanded. I just... seriously got hurt seeing him go all the way like that. It's just too much. I always get conflicted in such settings. You know, when two people aren't in a relationship despite being in love with each other and simply couldn't admit it out loud. I get mixed feelings when one of them decide to date or fool around with others (despite being "in love" with the other person "all this time") because they have no obligation to stop themselves from doing it ('cos they're single anyway). It sucks because they do this, but when they finally get together with their "ONE TRUE LOVE", they devalue all their previous relationships claiming to only love the OTL even when they were with others. It just hurts... Then again, there's no assurance that it they did come out and admit their feelings, they'll be reciprocated. Worst comes to worst, their current relationship would end and they'll just be too awkward around each other. So there's no guarantee that they won't be hurt either way. Others choose to date/be with other people in an attempt to forget their feelings for their OTL thinking it won't work out anyway... But anyway, my point is just that I don't like it when people claim to be in love with their OTL all this time when in fact, they shared moments with others. I just don't want it being brushed off like it didn't happen. Well, going back to the manga, like a lot of the commenters, I really wanted Naru to find someone else and see how Kei reacts after his plan backfires. Not saying that he has to have sex with him to or date him, but I dunno, just to something Kei never expected him to do. After all, if we look at the big picture, Naru was actually the first one to disregard Kei's feelings when he asked to have threesome and f*cked Mizuse. In a way, they both f*cked someone else despite being "together" all those years (without label nor confirmation though). I guess the degree isn't the same though, since they both f*cked Mizuse. It would've been different if Naru was f*cked by someone else instead, 'cos Kei wouldn't have been the only one to use his hole. I mean, in a way, I guess his pride won't let him have that (perhaps that's why he brought another uke instead of a seme when they had a threesome). But well, sex is sex. So that should still count. But yeahhh, the scenario I imagined was that after seeing Kei f*ck Mizuse in their room, instead of jerking off of it and running away, I wanted Naru to run away and ask to change rooms. After all, he clearly asked Kei not to let him in their room, but not only did he let him in, he even f*cked him (though he did it knowing Naru was there). I wanted Kei to go more psycho when he finds out that Naru would be moving and having a new seme roommate. Really, I also wanted Naru to realize that his world didn't only have Kei. I wanted him to open up to more people, especially his roommate. Then, seeing how his isolated Naru was no longer isolated and was starting to form relationship with other people, he'd just blow up and confess in desperation to keep Naru. Urghhhh... I'd just imagine it went that way instead of him simply "being courageous enough to fight for his love and snatch him under Mizuse's nose after claiming they belong to each other". 'Cos duh. He needed to have more character development than that. I guess the limited chapters made it that way though. If this had more, I'd definitely want to play it out with more character development instead of getting together just like that despite of everything that happened. Ughhh I think I typed a lot but I'm not sure if it's even coherent or whatever. Just a brain dump, I guess.

start: 01/12/21 up: 01/12/21 ~ ch 12 ughh I'm so frustrated with the seme.. I don't think I can forgive him even after "redeeming" himself once he learns the truth. I mean c'mon, how could he hurt the uke like that? Even if he dislikes their current relationship, they still spent some good years together. Why throw everything away just for that other uke? Ugh. He could've at least had the decency to do that much for the uke. Well the uke isn't perfect as well. He's persistently holding on when he's already being abused. I guess he got too attached to the seme for his past trauma. And he feels responsible to not let the pretentious uke to succeed in his goal.. Well ugh I don't think I'll continue anytime soon since there are only a few chapters available and I don't know how frequent the updates will be. I wanna drop it but I also wanna see the seme suffer for all he's done.