Natsuko's manga / #PTSD FL(1)

Ep46 *Topic may contain spoilers* In context of the FL, she is someone who scheme's but with the intention of surviving. Her acting as harmless isn't really acting because she is literally acting out means to garner power through favour in order to live. She's been thought to learn to grovel. As her family abuses her emotionally, as a victim, she unconsciously plays towards that level as well as she has learned that she needed to do so inorder to save her from pain. The knight/husband rejected her, due to his already defensive nature from the political war as a Nobel. He's pretty innocent interms of living from a loved family who hates political manipulation, virtuous, straight forward and pretty much a family guy who was raised by a loving family. He doesn't really need to learn to articulate himself because the people around him will do it for him. He could be said pretty emotionally stunted in that sense. So comes this princess who kept throwing herself at him and colliding with him to gain favour which I believe he is use to. He expects them to be cunning and have double meaning but later on realises, as much as she thinks she is pretending, she is genuinely harmless, compassionate, as ditzy as she pretends, fragile and a whole bag of trauma. I guess it stroke that knight mentality to take care of the women, or the heroic, martyr in him which is essential to his time. Some people can call that male ego, or the need to feel needed, I don't know. But if he is family oriented and his drive derives from protected his love ones. Rewarded when he win wars and taking risks with his life. Isn't that a good thing? Hmmm... maybe except the part if a men is unable to admit they are wrong or to meet halfway, then that's toxic I guess... so the Princess is the literal damsel in distress who somehow is cunning and equipped with playing emotional wars but it's been said that women are made that way in a sense that it their way in survival. And she's likeable in a sense that she finds comradery in those like princess Aredial who is a victim to their political lineage which makes they vulnerable even in the guise of being the top in a hierarchy and the compassion to protect the innocent younger sister who she admires of the ML... she values life. And as she was held in the arms of the ML after being so vulnerable and still claim that she would die in the hands of her 'husband'... but feeling surprise everytime he "forgives or dismisses" her apologies instead of inflicting a learn expectations of pain... she's so normalised on that trauma that she kinda move on from it after being so used to being exposed in such a vulnerable way... and she could still sleep and lie in this ML which was her description of him being her future executioner. But she doesn't blame him because she knew it was the manipulation of her family... omg.... even writing this down. WTH! That's super traumatising. Her life seems like helllllllllll.... and in that moment when she said I could ride freely without anyone reading my thoughts.... WTH.... the amount of scheming and fearing for her life right and left. This girl is a trouper... she doesn't sound like a damsel in distress anymore even if she is physically fragile. This girl is a trooper to me. To want to live even with the life she is living....