The_Devil's manga / #Sad(3)

i was hesitant on reading this coz i don't really like things that makes me sad but it was always on my recommendations and its sitting on my want to read for months and i am crying my eyes at rn, its 3:14 am here for christ sake, this is freaking sad, i hate adolph but the letter made me cry the most, now my nose is stuffed ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ The last chapter has ended, I'm here standing in front of your tomb, alone, continuing the life we once own. fuck the letter always makes me burst into tears… i’m so emotionally attached to zhishu/lewis. i genuinely cannot stop crying whenever i think of this manhua. that last line of his.. "after school.. let's go home together" i just cant sympathize with wenxu.. if only the doctor found zhishu first... Wishing for them to have a happy life in their next life. If Zishu continue with medical school, they might have met and be together I love to think that in parallel universe that happened The sad part is no one got a satisfied goodbye. Not even the Doctor as even to Zishu's last breath is his painful longer for that bastard SPOILER FOR EVERYONE & lets all cry & suffer till the end guys .. (I KNOW HOW IT IS BUT I STILL SHIP DR AI X ZHISHU) ... Zhishu & jiang wenxu has been together for a decade ..they were very poor once & had to share food to live & at that time jiang wenxu told "that in this lifetime i will only love you" ...with time they gradually became financially stable but jiang wenxu changed a lot , he started cheating with multiple people before starting an affair with ,Chen zui ( assistant ) for 3 years ...Although zhishu(uke) had a hunch about wenxu's unfaithfulness but he still had lingering feelings for him & refuses to tell jiang wenxu that he has cancer & is dying because he doesn't want his pity who is too busy with fooling around ======== SPOILER don't read if you don't wants to spoiled 1. seme suspects that uke is having an affair with his doctor... so seme rapes him multiple times..... After that uke 's condition was getting bad to worse..so he called his doctor friend for help (even his friend knew about his unfaithfulness) & that hoe affair guy(Chen zui ) seme is cheating with is among the many & is a fucking bitch & he is the the one who stole the ring.. seme is a douche , cheater & it broke my heart because uke DIES in the end...when uke thought he will give his last try in this toxic relationship that affair came to meet him..& that little hoe disclose of seme's affair with him & that they are seeing each other for 3 years... and that the ring which was very important for Zhishu is with him now & that was the final straw ...zhishu made his resolution of leaving him and took off his ring and throws it away & started behaving all lovey dovey with seme & seme was shocked tos see Zhishu acting all happy even after he lost his ring since he knows how important both the rings are for him & he had the feeling their is something off ...so after seme left for work he left the house & then he was with doctor Ai till the end but never accepted his proposal to be his lover... It was sad asf i was crying ..had dry eyes later on & was cursing seme throughout ...Also that bitch affair guy got his karma he died in an accident ! Once seme said to uke that ''I will never let you down" then soon after he became an absolute MF... ...... 2. uke could have been saved if he got the bone marrow transplant which Dr Ai desperately tried to buy but was brought by wenxu for the mayor's son's lover ..He even celebrated seeing Dr Ai lost & was enjoying the lavish party... later he learned that Dr Ai was there to get it to save Zhishu ...After learning the truth wenxu treid to buy it back but the mayor & his son told they have seen their young & handsome lover ,Chenzui who is fine ..But wenxu told it was for his long time partner 0f 14 years ..so people knew he was a cheating bitch lover... Zhishu had max compatibility with the bone marrow ..& seme without knowing ruined his chance to survive because of his ego ....... 3. It's ironic how seme refused to come back home when uke asked him to eat dumplings together ..because seme was too busy fucking his boy toys ... later when uke left seme was the one waiting & eating dumplings alone.. Seme was not much affected when he lost his ring .. & said he will buy new but got shocked when uke lost his.. Some people learns how priceless the other person was only when they looses them ----- 4. Some people were even saying lets forgive the seme because he suffers & he & uke were meant to be ..Like WTF what's the point of doing the things uke wanted to do now when he is already dead ..For uke ...seme was his world ..but he neglected, abuse & cheated on him ..not to forgate the physical violence ...No guys that relationship is beyond toxic & cannot be repair ----- 5. why Wenxu started cheating..?? As soon as the company which actually belongs to Zhishu stabilized & they started making profit WenXu told Zhishu to stop coming to office & stay at home & it was during these time with money & power he started changing ..I must remind you that WenXu was always an egoistical man who liked rough sex which he couldn't have with Zhishu who was always scared of pain ...His first rime was drunken mistake but later on there were no stopping him ..he almost started fucking anything that moved wile neglecting Zhishu ----- 6. For people who were saying why uke endure all this time & why is he not leaving him must remember 1.uke loved seme unconditionally & it's because he & seme ran away he lost contact with his family(ties got severed) he had nowhere to go because his parents were already dead by that time ... 2. uke suspected the seme was fooling around but was not sure & he already was dying .He had no one other than the unfaithful seme to rely on... That's why with a heavy heart uke said " even though you are fooling around.. just come back .. i have less than a year left" 3. Uke's grandma once told that you are doing this make sure you never regret your decision.. to which uke said he will never .. Uke remembers those words which were stabbing his already wounded heart like thrones 4. That ring was very important for uke & he learned from that BITCH about his & seme's affair for three years & about the ring ..It was the last & final fatal blow which left him broken & he left.. 5 . zihshu's parents died & he has no relatives & no one close on whom he can relied upon..He gave up his dream & carrier for seme's success & he sold their parents house as the down payment for the house they lives him . 6.the company which seme runs actually belongs to Zhishu which was given to him by his dead boss ...& still he acts all high & mighty even mocks Zhishu too.It was really painful that even though that company belongs to Zhishu when he died he only had a mere 1-5k yuan on him which was not even close enough to buy him a decent grave .. ----- It has two things that i hate the most 1. A MF cheating asshole seme 2.A faithful MC who is a genuine guy only suffers through out & finally gets freed from all this mess after his death #. i read the novel & it hit me pretty bad..so i am avoiding this manhua aka with pictures illustrations since i know it will only make me cry even more ..last but not the lest - FUCK SEME..FUCK THAT BITCH HOE..FUCK LIFE SUCKS.. but the best part was when Zhishu who still had lingering feeling for seme said he doesn't want to see him until his last breadth & not even in his afterlife !! i really liked that but i was crying

Please tell me how to recover from this. I feel like I won't ever recover That last chapter was really uncalled for :'( I feel attacked When you thought it’s all butterflies & fairies the boom Vol.2 Ch.8.1 came He didn't even reached the age of 60 :< Why is the ending that way...I really salute to those Old Gaymen couples who stays in each other cried the entire batch of last chapters. Like non - stop tears, snot, clogged throat and coughing crying. And i am doing all this while running a fever. I came to have a good time, didnt check the tags and suffered. Lets just say, mom walked in on me wiping my tears and she yelled. A lot. （/TДT)/ Not my fault it was so beautiful.

The fact that this is what reality is, hurts more.... WHAT UR GONNA LEAVE ME LIKE THAT （/TДT)/ THAT WAS A DIRTY MOVE MAN NOT COOL NOT COOL Wtf? Wrecking my heart with this one shot