alrkitty's manga / #Older Seme(3)

Really enjoying the story though I am very curious about what's actually going on and if the gangster is playing our guy or not. I want to believe he's just up to normal gangster stuff but not sure why maybe I got ruined by some other mangas but I'm hoping he's not a serial killer though I was wondering if he's just a vamp but that's farfetched. I'm just hoping he doesn't sell em off and hoping he's more than sexually attracted. You know sometimes I'm more into not reforming the gangster but becoming apart of his world instead. Wonder which one this will be. Also their both pretty sexy

I'm not sure what the real story is behind what happened when he was a kid. I'm sure the seme is a typical gang leader but that doesn't mean he's the one who broke his legs and hurt him. Maybe his parents weren't good guys. Honestly the kid gives of abused child vibes which makes me wonder what his situation was and why the big guy is putting his life in our guys hands. And if he did hurt him why didn't he finish it? Why was a kid there anyways? Was it while he was in the military or after? They imply it was when he just got back but that's odd. Honestly we have no hints at what actually happened but something that has me very curious is why is the monster a giant eye? Is it a subconscious knowing that our guy is the monster and he knows he's being watched so he morphed it into a eye to reflect him or was he being watched as a kid or was he an experiment or something? Why a giant creepy eye? Also his fear of being touched and how he was as a kid makes me wonder if someone sexually abused him on top of the other stuff. Also I wonder if our guy is maybe not as innocent or good as he comes off...is it maybe a mask? Something he created to please the big guy? How did he go from hating him to liking him? It's be nice to keep seeing what happened back then. You know he did tell him he'd kill the monster if he is the monster I just thought metaphorically that was why he was trying to be a better man killing his bad self but what if he thought of himself as a monster and raised a kid to kill that monster? Well probably not not like he gave him special training and he isn't trying to help him remember but does he want to be killed by him? What's going on in his head? He keeps saying he's doing what the main guy wants so does he want his own death because the kid wants it? But why would he let him have such control. Hmmm Personally besides his mom I suspect he killed everyone else to I'm just curious as to his reason and why our guy survived. Also I'm not trying to determine if he's a good guy he's a Yakuza leader so that's questionable but depends on how you look at it. But I guess I'd like to know his intentions towards our guy and whether he's the one who injured him as a child but even if he did what was his reason because in this story who he is now matters more. Because I think that's what matters to our guy. And it seems like he's going to let our guy kill him and not let his minions stop him or get pay back. But why? Does he feel guilty over something? Why would he? Does he feel obligation to someone? Or does our guy have information?