alrkitty's manga / #Nobility(12)

A really good story about a girl out to save her life by making the crown prince emperor and getting on his good side.

I would call this a regression story not reincarnation Tag: psychological/ josei (more likely than shoujo seeing as how shoujo is made for young girls (children not teens) would you want them seeing nude people? Josei is made for adult women the concepts of this manga are complicated josei deals with adult concepts so seriously pretty sure this is josei). Also personally I have hard time saying she's a strong female lead when it's so obvious she's the opposite but I would like to say that she is. Is just the strong don't kill themselves twice or become mentally ill because they couldn't handle it. And while her facade might make her seem strong she herself said that was the greatest lesson her mother in law taught her to hide her weakness. If she was strong she wouldn't be so tortured and still be seeking death. I would like to say she's strong because she persevered but that's just so she'll have the freedom to die because life's just horrible she's so traumatized she's afraid to believe in the love she sees she's afraid to feel any of it she's very deserving of being happy but I've been there and a facade doesn't make us strong and seeking death just means we gave up I admire her for continuing on but it's not strong. What is strong is when she gets past all that and you see her will personality when you find out how caring she can still be how much she actually does care about the guy just being able to be that way when all that happened she'll be stronger than every one when she decides to live and be happy So yeah I have a hard time saying she's a strong female lead well unless we're talking about her mouth or slap ability. I really like her as a character and I truly hope she ends up happy in the end of the story and I hope that past love doesn't ruin what she currently has... honestly based on lots of words she said I am in great doubt that her second life's was as great as she make it sound because she also makes it sound like it doesn't last the love. She just makes it seem like either she wasn't in love then or his love died or something otherwise she'd believe in love more if her love had been as strong as some comments made it seem though her love is what I'm doubting I'm thinking hers died down but that's probably because it was infatuation. Also I find it immensely interesting that she keeps revealing she knew him in each life big spoiler.........he always loved her always. It's interesting that she knew that. It makes me wonder if her choosing him wasn't what she thought what if she subconsciously choose him one because he was always there and she wanted to help him for a change or give back to him or perhaps she's wrong her second life wasn't from love but desperation and her final life was while in her right mind choosing for herself a nan she's always wanted but thought she didn't deserve. Maybe she wanted a bit of what she's always wanted. (His love) well that's a huge assumption but I'm suspicious because she pointed out he's always been there and she never understood why. He always loved her. He even helped her husband. Also what's interesting is he loved her no matter what. Used abused beautiful perceived ugly. Cold passionate. Abusive angry happy he likes her no matter what. (And she knows that). So I can't help but wonder if her subconscious wanted one last chance and choose a guy who she thought was to good for her but she just couldn't help but want to touch that fire one last time. To experience what she never got to experience and forget her torrid past and unforgivable actions and let her past move on to someone better than her. (I don't think it's unforgivable I think she had reason but I think she feels that way also as a noble I suspect she finds her past torrid). This is a good story and I feel it shows her mentality realistically