YSP Lover's manga / #Re-read(509)

It's a 21 year age difference between novelist (32yrs) and a girl (11yrs). "I am sorry madam, I love her. I am in love with Haruka. We've already been together for 7 years now. She's the same as family to me. She's so important to me, that now I cannot consider letting her go anymore, so I don't want to let her feel sad and I don't want to lose her. I understand your feelings of not wanting to leave Haruka alone but please let her go. If you are afraid to die alone, I will accompany you. If it's just a matter of being unhappy or afraid to to alone, then as long as there's someone with you, it doesn't matter who it is right? The reason why you don't want to leave Haruka behind and want her with you is because she's also precious to you, right? Haruka isn't a child anymore either. You can talk to her about anything, no matter how painful or sad, you can speak openly. She'll understand."

1. Hitomi Masataka (is a surgeon, working in a quite big hospital) and Itokawa Kazuto. 2. Kanze Daiki (is a potter) and Kuroi Sawato (is the town chairman in addition to being the section manager of the reconstruction division, Yaya and Gara). 3. Tsujimoto Youmei (is a shut-in Yakuza) and Sano Hizuru (is a person who lives for Youmei's sake). 4. Kiriya Shun (is the head of the Hiraoka clan and is a skilled fighter) and Sagara Sousuke. 5. Yaya Kujio (was the bassist in the band that he formed with Gara and Sabato) and Kuroi Enma (is Sabato's younger brother).

Love Hazuki and Watari love long distance. "This scent... we used to have sex during third year of high school, from the rainy season till graduation. That was the best time of my life. I want to touch more, I want to feel more. The word more kept playing in my head, the closer I got, the more I wanted to touch and the more I touched, the more I didn't want to stop. After that, we had sex so many times, I've lost count. Never once did Watari refuse me, probably it's because of his meek personality, he never said no. He smile never changed, like back then, I'm captivated by him. It is only Watari whom I cannot take my eyes off of. I thought that nothing has changed, but too much has changed. I was the only one who thought things wouldn't change. Watari's smile and scent... At that time, I didn't realize his feeling." "Hazuri has been very thoughtful, taking my feeling into consideration that kind of happiness I cannot get used to. We have a long-distance relationship, me-having responsibilities with the local prefecture office. While Hazuki-having attended university in Tokyo, found a job with a corporation in the city. Even though he knew that I was being willful, he still compiled with my self-centered demands to meet every week. And this has lasted for month now. Traveling expenses for a round-trip cost about 20,000yen. Arriving on Friday evening and leaving with the last train on Sunday evening. Saying as though it's natural to do so, if only he would say that it was intolerable to come every week. That's right I've always been waiting, this was how Hazuri concede, but he has never blamed me for doing nothing but waiting. Even though it was something we were both responsible for. Really, if only I'd realized it earlier. It's not about whose fault it was for not continuing before. You've changed, matured so much, always I'm the one left behind. The feelings you've conveyed I'll take them with me."

Being the one desiring or being desired by him, and being the one embracing or being embraced by him, either way can make me feel this good. I should have realized this sooner. What's precious is inside of the box but not anymore. I tore it to pieces with my own hands. I lost it all. The only parter I wanted to treasure as most important to me... There's nothing left for me anymore. "Gin knew it. He knew that it was all an outburst of anger. And he accepted it despite knowing... Event if I regret it now, it's too late..." "As long as they had the slightest resemblance to u, anyone was fine. All of them were ur replacement." Ei said. If he ever said those things... "I'm fine with u." "I don't want it if it's not u." If only... Ei-chan would want me from the bottom of his heart... I'd be the happiest person in this world. Gin said.