YSP Lover's manga / #Pure love(10)

Chikao is a gentle soul who has the bad luck of falling in love with Yuuji, a playboy and cheat.

Onodera Ritsu was in Junior High school confessed love to Saga-senpai who was in Senior High School then they made sex-relationship but breaking up after had misunderstanding some stories. 10yrs then their have met up each other again but "I will never fall in love again" Onodera Ritsu said. Saga Masamune was changed because his parents divorced when he was a senior in high school and now he is Takano Masamune. "People who are nice to others... I always thought they acted that way expecting something in return. But really with this guy, it's probably that he just love me... It's probably just that and nothing more." Saga-san said. "Did I hear him reight? I guess because I really truely love him. If he loved me back at least a little, I could die happy. Don't be stupid like I'd ever fall again for the same persion I was in love with ten years ago. No way, I'll never ever do that. So my heart beating like crazy is simply. It's easy for him to talk about ten years ago, but the truth is that it was a long time ago and memories fade Besides, we only dated for a short time. And just what did Takano-san get up to during the ten years we were apart? I hurt Takano-san? He knew who I was before we started dating? and all the misunderstandings that make no sense? I hate this! my head is always spinning, filled with thoughts of him. Everything seems to go haywire whenever Takano-san is near me, leaves me shaken. It's not like I'm in love with him anymore. Our ralationship might've worked when we were both young and stupid. But I'm an adult now, he's my boss and we're both men. I wonder why all he has to do is talk to me or touch me or just laugh and my heart squeezes painfully in my chest. That I almost made love with Takano-san the other day. I can still remember the feeling of his touch, his kissing, undressing, and su...sucking. There are absolutely no feeling of love involved. It's not like Takana-san and I are lovers or anything like that. Aside from our past, we're now just a boss and a subordinate. Ther truth is, I don't want to be involved with him any more than I already am. It must be the right thing to do from an objective viewpoint too. Even though he always scolds me, even though he always insults me, it's because he holds me like i'm too precious to him. I won't tell him. Even though he makes my heart race and my chest ache with such pain that tears well up in my eyes, I filled with happiness just by the warmth of his body. He's the only person who has ever made me feel this way in my life. I won't tell him such frustrating things. When he touch me, it feels like my whole body is on fire. I just freeze up and lose all my strength and then there's a ringing deep within my ears. All I can hear is my own heartbeat, the sound of his belt unbuckling, the sound of clothes rustling and the sound of Takano-san breathing. There's no way that can be true... but but what if it is? Then... yeah... just maybe that's what it is after all. His cold fingers set off a fever through my whole body. Even though my whole body was soaked and I had felt as If I were going to freeze over. Takano-san's heat had melted my through before I even realized it. Why do his kisses feel this good? Why do his arms hold me this gently? The Temperature and heartbeat that I can feel in the palm of my hand, is it Takano-san's? It's just that it's nothing but hot and painfully sweet." "I'm speaking to you, one man to another. I'm scared to death of never being able to see you again."

Start of the story was messy and boring, in middle was super worst because of seme's past he had sex without love, every partners it seems his life was the hell. After fell in love, just knew the past was worst but it already done for long time and you cannot change anything.