YSP Lover's manga / #Cruel rape(22)

Love between Takatou Akihito an Ryou. "I wonder how many times I've been forced to have sex with this guy, Takatou Akihito. After letting him do as he pleases, he's the only one who looks satisfied as usual. This kind of one-sided sex with Akihito is separating my heart from my body. Every time he holds me, my body gets hotter but my heart grows colder. But this okay, these unnecessary emotions it'd be better if they just disappeared. There's no way I'll ever love him. In the end, no matter where i am, there's no way to escape these chains for the rest of my life. On Akihito's orders, I moved into the main residence. Akihito often comes to my room for sex, as the days go by, Akihito becomes more and more aggressive. It's like this everyday. He forces my body to remember that it belongs to him. In the end, I haven't given up my feelings. No matter how far a part we get to me, Akihito is till the first person I feel in love with."

Love between Watakabe-san and Hazuki. "Watakabe-san of course I've hear of him, but I never met him until now. He seems so mature and gentle! hard to believe that people like him actually exist!" "Last night, he looked completely different. He has such wild murderous look in his eyes. I know it's unlikely but I still want to try. Chances are he won't be here again tonight but I won't give up until I try. So Watakabe-san is also gay, he hasn't said a word to me and I just followed along. What's going on? This can't be real! This can't be! This isn't sex! I was so scared! That was totally detached from any sentiments! He used me like a thing! Why? Why am I doing this? He just raped me! Regardless, I still want to know even his dark side even if only a little. I could take much more of this everytime is like rape. I have a cut on my lip when he first cuffed me, I didn't like it so he hit me. He was so violent with eyes as cold as ice and he would hit me whenever I protest. Like he said I'm better off staying away from him but why do I still want to be with him? If I decide to leave him, he wouldn't even miss me. He'll just forget me and more on. But I don't want to lose him." "He was just laughing and having a good time with his friends. Why did it make me feel so enraged? How could I do this to him? I've no right to restrict him from being with other people. I can't lock him up all for myself! It's his right to do whatever he wants when he's not with me. Besides, if he weren't aroung, I could always find others to take his place like I used to. I probably should've done that. It would've been for the best especially for him. He would no longer be subjected to my violence and find a new man. A new man? Him? with another man?"

Love between Kanou Somuku and Ayase Yukiya. "I'll teach you so that this time you won't forget. Two guys? It's weird isn't it? I know that too, when I was holding you in my deams... I thought about it too but still... I don't care about what happens anymore I just want him. What am I doing? Even I knowing this... I promised to protect you and not to let anyone dirty you. You have been the most important person in my life. I want you so badly. If I can't have you no matter what I do... but why do I still want you rather than handing you over to someone else. In order to have you I would bind you by any means." "He wants to believe in someone. He wants to have someone who he can call a relative so that he can rely on them. He is afraid to accept the fact that he's alone, I'll never leave him. But to Ayase, the he needs is not me. Let's go to the place where only I can be relied on." "What am I doing... No matter what I do, it's useless. Not from this room nor from the life I'm living in. I will not be able to escape... What's wrong Kanou-san... why do you have such a sad expression on your face? This is weird after saying all those things... this person's hand why does it feel so warm? I'm going to break completely by that person's hand. My everyday life, my sense, my body my soul and everything else... but why? why does it feel so tender?"

Love between Kaito Kuroba and Kudou Shinichi. "How did it end up like this... it's just as he said... I've broken your perfect world apart. I'm sorry Shinichi Kudo... Fragments of your broken world keep falling onto my body... But I chose to be with you... even though there's nothing stopping me from leaving you alone." "I'll figure out what to do... I will change fate with my own two hands... even if I have to destroy this world to do it." "Kudo... hate me... despise me.. and never forget about me.... and please kill me."

Love Lu Cang and Yuan Jing. "After last time at Tonghua house, when I'd done him in with brutal torture, he always cries and throws tantrums and wouldn't allow me to touch him even if it meant death. I've already tried using force combined with his mental resistance, I couldn't enter him smoothly at all. Although if I used my full strength there's a chance I'd succeed, but I'm afraid at the same time he would also lose his life. I'd really hate to part with such a great toy." "Even if I can get pass tomorrow's sixth round, even if I can break away from this man, even if this is the very last meeting... However this part that had been touched thoroughtly by you, for this life I fear I could never forget this pair of hands which had infused lust and pain as heavy as a mountain."

Love Colonel Taki and Captain Klaus von Wolfstadt.

Love Futaba and Kazuyuki (Yuki said his mother was abandoned by their father because Futaba's mother snatched him away. His mother and him were thrown away when Futaba were born.). "That was the last time I saw Yuki-chan, he disappeared from my life. Why?Pat me on the head again, cheer me up, I want to see you. The more my memories faded, the more my heart craved him, the more time that passed, the more I yearned form him. I just can't forget him, Finally we met again. I actually came here to hurt you. What should I do? I love Yuki-chan. Even thought it hurts so much, this pain... is different. My heart is racing even thought we're brothers. Even thought he's my older brother, I'm beginning to think that it doesn;t matter something's wrong with me. I never knew Yuki-chan hates me... that's why even if you hurt me, it's ok you know? Since then, Yuki-chan hardly goes out at night anymore, instead he slept with me night came again and again. The next day, Yuki-chan was gone. Once again, he vanished from my sight. Laundry for two people, meal preparations for two people. I wonder why... such trivial things make me so happy. I know very well this throbbing heat ... every part of Futaba is telling me that he loves me so much. I really wish that Moday would never ever come again."