hellahana's manga / #Otome game(7)

Haihhh aku bencila, bila turn aku pulakk??? Aku baca yaoi nk dkt beribu(s) pun x kan pernah paham hati sendiri. Apa yg aku nk? Apa yg aku attracted to? I wouldn't be able to answer that question. Very simple and yet so mysterious. Sometimes tears flow out just because I can't decide on my own. Being indecisive is terrible. I hate that feeling. Haha I've comes to a term... well tbh I haven't (yet). Telling myself to just enjoy the moment. No it's fucking misery. Trying hard to hide shit. When people talks about the community, I feel like a shit, talking shit about myself and obliviously they don't know that. They must be thinking "oh gurl you must thinking the same!" GOD NOOOOO I DON'T WANT TO EVEN IF I CAN. BUT IF I DON'T SAY ANYTHING AND STAY NEUTRAL (all the time) PEOPLE WOULD NOTICE AND YES THEY DID NOTICED. bro my mom thinks I have no interest in male and she started talking about condom and that hole of her infront of me. I mean, infront of your child? Wtf? Sorry for being vulgar. She must have think, I didn't age right. Something wrong with my brain system. Also that friend of mine, we did a bunch of thing in freshman year and when I asked you what your thought about two girls having sex, you said it gross. Just, wth? Just because we didn't go further, you think it's fine saying that? I'm disappointed. I should sleep, bye. This poor manga had to listen to my whining. I'm sorry, to the reader aswell. This manga really has opened my eyes. I keep thinking about stuff throughout today. Thank you for making me able to express my feeling even just a little. Sorry for venting out. I'll be waiting for my reply in few years from now on. This is the past you. Take care of yourself. Don't die just yet, alright? Wait I have something to confess, babi tui, bodoh, ciba pungkoq ayam. Hanat jahanam. Haram jadah bila time hg boleh tidur awai, hg tidur. Kenapa ketegaq sangat ni. Hg nk aku pukul? Tapi that would be sh which aku x mau. Aku dh serik. Cakap apa pun x kan dgq. Kenapa jadi bodoh sangat iiiii yg teramat ni. Babi, cibai, if you boleh tidur, kenapa x tidur. Org lain punya pulun buat assignment. Yg ko... Buat apa? Melantak ja kerja. Haihh sudah. Makin melayan perasaan, lagi x berubah la aku ni