ajay's manga / #dark(6)

Killing Stalking

Complete | koogi | 2016 released

So. Killing Stalking. Not the gateway into yaoi for me, but it was definitely the push. I’m writing this review after rereading this series three times. I do not consider this a yaoi by any means. This is a amazingly well-written psychological mind fuck. It is an amazing thriller by all means, and I very much so love this. I do not ship or condone any of the characters in KS, because this was not intended to be that. This might have been the push for my yaoi craze, but it is definitely not my favorite yaoi, or a yaoi in my eyes. Read this for what it is, a horror manhwa.

Warehouse

Complete | Team Killerwhale | 2016 released

Wow. Hold on, I’m currently writing this with tears in eyes, so this is hard. Let’s talk about this. So, there’s a lot to cover, so let’s just break it up into three sections: The uke, the seme, and the relationship. The uke is the main character of the story. He is shown as a regular, hard working middle class man in his late twenties. He is kidnapped by the seme, and this is where we learn more about his character. The best words to describe this man are selfish, a sadist/masochist, and dependent. He is a person who didn’t know how to love properly, so in turn he used the feeling of superiority to hurt and force the seme to stay (in the past). When he finally remembered everything later on, he couldn't let go of the past, and tried to force his view of the seme onto him. Even after he burned down the warehouse and everything was over, he wasn’t able to let go of his kidnapper, and first true love. He is truly sad and messed up. The seme is shown as this mysterious kidnapper that is perverted and rapes the uke. When the uke finds his diary from the past and present, we start to learn more about him. The three words I would use to describe him is obsessive, depressed, and desperate. He was an innocent kid who was forced into obsession by the uke, after being tormented and belittled sexual and emotionally by him. He kidnapped and raped the uke as a way for him to experience all the pain he went through, but it ended up backing firing and making him fall in a twisted web of lies and love again. He really just wanted to be happy with the uke, but ended up messing everything up in the worse possible ways. Even after everything, he still accepted the uke back into his arms. This brings us to their relationship. What can I say? It’s toxic as fuck. They both experienced some serve Lima and Stockholm syndrome, and they can’t seem to love each other without making the other one suffer. These two did end up together in the end, and I will say why this is the best and worst possible ending. This is the worst ending because they seriously shouldn’t be in such a toxic and unhealthy relationship. This is the best ending because I whole heartedly believe that these two would never have found happiness or love in any way without the other. They are too messed up for love, friends, family, and even living. The fact that they are able to be messed up and in pain together for the rest of their lives, is probably the most painful and perfect option for them. They can depend on each other, even if it’s in an unhealthy way. Cuz even if these two messed up people weren’t together, they would still be in pain and suffering. At least now, they have someone to suffer with them. Anyways, just go read it man

Danganronpa dj - Gomi to Kuzu

Complete | ZCC,Zakiko | 2013 released

My life in two panels

Complete | Erdev | 2000 released

A true masterpiece. I haven’t read a manga in a while that brought actual tears to my eyes. The romance, the drama, and the comedy truly made such a wonderful blend of life. While reading this I could truly understand the world from the main character’s perspective, and how it was so unique. The art is probably the best I’ve seen. A true spectacle, the colors just compliment each other so well, and the line art is so clean. 100% recommended to anyone with a love for literature, and true breathtaking story.

Mizusoko ni Sumu Kodomotachi

Complete | Azuma Kaya | 2000 released

Hm. you know, i do like a fucked up story once in a while, but what takes away from the story was the ending. The ending made all the hardship, rape, and abuse disappear because they just got together in the end. It shouldn’t have ended like that in my opinion. I honestly, straight up believe, that Mirai should have killed himself and that the teacher should have gone to jail, or commit double suicide. Both of them are so fucked up, that neither belong in that society. Whether it’s behind bars, or 6 feet under, they should not be alive. They both have nothing, and are both dangerous.

Abyss

Complete | Kim eunji,Eeej | 2019 released