『Fangtasia』's manga / #angst(13)

Author had a chance to make a cute father figure and daughter dynamic but chose to make this about pedophilia. Apparently pedophiles think that what they are doing to a child is love. This is also an example of it but this is not love, this is perversion. I read this because I thought the girl just looks like a kid but is an adult. I thought wrong and now I regret reading this.（￣へ￣） Kids don't know what's right or wrong so stop fetishizing them.

SUPPORT ON LEZHIN <3 Ivan is a guardian android, responsible for teaching the orphanage children everything they’ll need to thrive in the big, wide world. Rau has been in Ivan’s care for years now, but recently they’ve grown distant. What’s more, Rau’s graduation into adulthood has brought on physical changes, mood swings and uncontrollable urges. Desperate to rebuild bridges before Rau’s impending departure, Ivan offers to grant him a birthday wish. The problem is, Rau’s most ardent desire is to get lessons in sex. From Ivan. Kids these days sure grow up fast…

WARNING: family abuse (more on oral), dubcon & manipulation, pls proceed w caution! boi do i love angst and anxiety? best combo :D MORE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLS, MORE FUCKED UP BLS. and lemme tell u, that "pillar of hope" doctor is just as shady! i dont trust nobody in that house. and pls dont forget to support the author on lezhin, they deserve the monies!!!

So realistic and so sad. Don't read this if you can't handle the tragedy tag, but it's worth it. A masterpiece.

If you haven't read the whole thing, then don't read my review (chapter by chapter comments) because there will be spoilers. Chapter 1: Did he really keep an unknown guy near his beloved daughter? That part seemed strange for me and it's one of the reasons I gave this rating and not a perfect 10. Chapter 2: At first I thought Akitora died and the daughter we see in chapter 1 is his, and Uichi was taking care of her because he couldn’t have Akitora. He said she was his everything and that was what he said for Akitora but we'll see about that. Chapter 3: That struck me deep. What a fucking masterpiece. Author, I love you. Not to mention... falling for a married man? That hurts. Uisui didn't know at first but he chose to accept it somewhat at first and even more down the line. Chapter 5.5: Engaging in sex while the other person is unconscious is a big no-no, but in this case Uisui would have loved every moment of it, even if he heard about it from Akitora later on. Not to mention Akitora couldn't bear the temptation, so that would have made his even more happy. And that's the reason Akitora's face was bit red when he laid on his wife lap after that bath. Chapter 7: The vibe of this dynamic is relatable. I know he is hurt so bad, but that wife is so cool and put together that nothing and no one could ever take her place. Chapter 9: Asami is the MVP for real. She's quite the strong woman, not only is she caring for a damaged soul like Uichi, but also standing her ground. Chapter 10: "The urge to possess him is what drove me to kill Handa." I knew it. He punched Handa because he was angry to hear him say something amongst the lines of -you can't have him, he belongs to me!- ''Sometimes I feel like we're lovers. Sometimes it's friends. And sometimes it's more like we're parent and child.'' What Akitora said should have pissed his wife off, because ultimately that's what the person you love and wanna live and build a life with is. They are your lover, your friend and even your parent in the ways they care for you. Disappointed we didn't actually see that, or if that was it and she lied by saying, ''Murders don't need to come home'' hope its explained down the road. Chapter 11: When Akitora went to finally meet his father, at first glance I thought he had been forced to make tiny ponytails like little girls do but it was just the doorknobs. Please tell me I'm not the only one laughing at this panel. Chapter 12: This is perfect to a T. A job well done author-sama. Remember how I was wondering about the wife's reaction? Her feelings are clearly explained here when she thinks, ''That's as serious as you can get.'' She's trying not to lose her husband and she knows there's no other way than to accept the situation as is. Being a former prostitute and being a yakuza's wife, she knew what she was getting into. Being an empathic and genuinely worrying over Uisui also isn't helping her at all. Akitora and his wife... I just love them so so much! An out of ordinary couple that has lived together, came to understand and respect each other within the confines of a Yakuza world, one as strict and unbending as the military, refusing to accept let alone embrace change. This mangaka is brilliant! Chapter 13: Oh, Asoda. Somehow being a bastard doesn't suit you at all, sugar. I didn't wanna believe it, but I think in his mind he's doing everything for his boss, and he wouldn't have done that if the second's head executive hadn't put these thoughts into his head. He is clearly manipulating him and Asoda is falling for it. By the looks of it, Akitora already is on to it since he was looking from the window but I wonder what that betrayal will cost to Uisui. Chapter 14: Matsumi's genius brain and his untouchable aura....it's kind of creepy but also kinda hot at the same time. As for Asoda, all of this is an entire betrayal and the fact that he thinks he’s doing it for the boss is a complete and utter fail. Chapter 14.5: This chapter had a terrifying beauty to it. Chapter 15: I was so satisfied seeing Uisui telling it as it really is to Asoda. He should know his place. Russian Roulette... (OMG) wasn't expecting that or the continuation but I should have known by now how on edge Uisui lives. I kind of knew Asoda had a thing for Uichi from their history together and maybe that was why Uichi apologized at the temple (sex in the temple). Uichi probably used a cassette player to tape Asoda's admission to meddling with his boss's money, which he entrusted to Uichi for investment purposes. He basically threatened the stock broker into losing his boss's money. Chapter 16: Well, unexpected but its not the first time we see Akitora going all ballistic against anyone who touches or tries to claim Uisui. Chapter 17: I like that the situation between Akitora and Uisui is explained through the point of view of a third person who's just involved in the mess but Matsumi being Akitora's brother is another unexpected factor that was just thrown on us out of the blue, but with good reasons, and since there's a rivalry going on between the brothers, all the more reason Akitora shouldn't have left Uisui go with Masumi. And why the heck did Asoda lie again? Chapter 22: No matter what he said, Uisui really considered them his family, even Akitora's wife, Asoda who hurt him, and the baby. He left for Akitora's sake and was once again alone. He had found a family, even if it was dysfunctional but he was happy with it. Now there's nothing. That hit so hard I kept crying. Chapter 26: I'm sad his wife passed away and I think that's the reason Akitora managed to stay away from Uisui for that long, seeing as he made it back to him after she passed away. Not that he didn't love her, cause he did in a different way than Uisui, but without her he would have tried to keep Uisui tied down. Uisui on the other hand took that kid and raised it as his because of his loneliness. He wanted to form his own family but could never love romantically anyone else. It was so nice to see them together after all these years. All in all, this was magnificent. Definitely a good read. 9.5/10 overall rating. I loved how this was not just about romantic jealousy and we could see where everyone’s jealousy led them. Jealousy was a very fitting title indeed. The author sure knows human nature and their talent is breaking my heart with its beauty.