My Lover, My Teacher
My Review ++SPOILERS++ You have to be kidding me. This was the end? No sequel? No nothing? He just left? I don't know what to say. This was filled with a lot of heartbreak and cheating. I hate cheaters but I understand Kyujin. Kyujin may seem like he played with Jimin and Doyeol's feelings but he didn't. His cousin, Doyeol, was the first lover he had and he wasn't sure what he was feeling. It was clear from the start that he was unsure about them and he wanted his cousin to be happy because they had been through so much since they lost their families and when he realized how deep Kyujin's feelings were, he wanted to make him more happy and he rushed things with being in a relationship and a ring. Then when he met his student, Jimin, he tried to fight the feelings that started from a joke but when he heard from Jimin that he was leaving and he would go to the States, he let all his feelings (that he was holding back in order not to hurt his cousin) unleashed. Doyeol knew Kyujin's button and when a few months had passed with Jimin being away he made his moves in order to reclaim his cousin (meaning lover, meaning Kyujin). He played dirty by sending that message to Jimin as if it was sent by Kyujin, but everything is fair in love and war. We can really see the deepness of Doyeol's feelings and how torn Kyujin was between the two guys who loved him. Don't forget that the only relationship Kyujin had before he fell for Jimin was with Doyeol. He didn't have the experience nor was he interested in a relationship before. So, when Jimin came back and they met, sparks went flying again and they ended up together. I'm so sad over Doyeol's heartbreak. He listened to his lover have sex in their own house, and he had to kick Kyujin out because it would have been unbearable living in the same place, even if it was a few days a month, because he would have to live knowing Kyujin loved another. When Doyeol took a big step and married, I honestly thought he was punishing himself because he felt guilty of still feeling what he felt for his cousin and he knew there was no other way for the two of them to meet. Doyeol wasn't ready for their meet-up and he might have never been, and that's why after a while they fell back to the same circle and slept together. In the end, Kyujin ended up leaving both of them without even telling them properly because he knew that circle would never end. He was too confused with his emotions, not knowing what to do and the fact that he couldn't choose between his first love (his cousin who he has relied on since young) or to choose the one he fell for hard. And yes, Kyujin was in love with Doyeol but he never had to question his feelings before and even if he was with Jimin, he thought Doyeol would always be there for him. He took him for granted without even realizing it. It's a tragic story and in the end, all of them are left heartbroken. I thought I wouldn't really enjoy this but something about this story drags you in and even though I didn't like the ending because Kyujin left both Doyeol and Jimin without explaining and just leaving two letters addressed to them behind after moving to someplace secluded to make a new start, there are still hopes for a sequel. I mean the ending is kind of open cause you don't know what would happen next and from what we know, Kyujin didn't have it in him to stay away from Doyeol because even before he knew about the wedding, he kept wondering about Doyeol and even dreamed of him when he spilled his name and Jimin heard him. This is a gem. A must-read for me if you like emotion roller-coasters.
Daisuki dakara Ijimetai!
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Glen (글렌)