『Fangtasia』's manga / #Bdsm(38)

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This is a gem. A new favorite of mine. And I just love the art; so beautiful. <3 I can't believe we're stuck on an indefinite hiatus. Wonder when this will come back, if it ever does. So far, I just went through all five stages of grief in the span of a second. I'm torn. I'm battered. I'm bruised. The color of my world got drained and all I'm left to see is shades of grey. Nothing matters anymore. It's super toxic and like morally f***ed but I absolutely loved the main couple. It's just such an intense relationship. ლ(´ڡ`ლ) It's really just an obsession and I love that.

Review: +SPOILERS+ I'm glad I picked this up even though there were many negative comments. Shinwoo (the uke) is suffering from trauma. We don't know why he did what he did with the art teacher while he loved Taesoo. Maybe it was to find sexual relief or curiosity on top of that who knows, but the trauma he received when Taesoo saw him in that condition and called him names though it hurt him, it created that condition where he gets excited by those words now and took a left turn diving into BDSM. After chapter 18 everything is explained, so the mystery and the questions that were kept in the first chapters are all answered. Taesoo on the other hand, had already fallen for the Sinwoo that had already fallen for him so when he saw Sinwoo who was supposed to be in love with him, doing those kind of things with ther art teacher, he felt hurt and betrayed and that's why he said what he did. So, after they are re-united, Taesoo realizes he is still in love with him bt Sinwoo isn't anymore. Sinwoo just gets the kind of sexual relief he can't get from his boyfriend, from Taesoo, thus resulting in cheating. His boyfriend loves him too much and even though he thought he was cheating for a moment, he trusted his boyfriend and he isn't talking about it with him, but trying to fill his boyfriend's sexual urges so he won't have to sleep around. He is too good for his own good. When Sinwoo finds out about the messeges where Sebin is asking for advice about him, he packs his few things and tries to leave, Sebin pulls him back in his house and leaves instead. All Sinwoo wanted was for Subin to grab him back and make him his. That's the feeling I get. So, at chapter 24 having no one else to call, Sinwoo calls Taesoo and when Taesoo says he won't let him go now that he got him, Sinwoo cries because he heard the words he wanted to hear but they weren't from Sebin. When Sebin mastered the courage to grab a hold of him, it wasn't Sinwoo but a look-alike. Still, Sinwoo was worried Sebin would cheat with that woman so he went kinda undercover trying to find out what''s going on and interfere if that was the case. Sebin is honestly and pure-heartedly in love with Sinwoo. Chapter 35 hurts. Sebin realized Sinwoo was cheating when he saw the two of them together, but he had already left when Sinwoo pushed Taesoo and spilled his heart out. This love triangle is so sad. All of them are pitiful in their own way. After chapter 41 and 42, I have this feeling of wanting Taesoo and Shinwoo to end up together but then Sebin would be left heartbroken and I don't want that either. ::cry: Chapter 43-46; Shinwoo is finally growing up. I'm so happy for him. Not that he can make amends, but still he has to do what he has to do. After reading chapter 52 & 53, can I say how excited I am for this new side of Sebin??? Like... KYA!!! The ending left me confused as most of us because of the same hair color. It's like the uke went back to its old ways but I hope not.

Took him 33 chapters to realize that Baekyung loves him and it took us 3 sec to see through that in ch1.

104 Chapters + Illustration Hiatus + 2 Season Reviews (Completed) S1: Completed 29 Chapters + Special (1~29) •Side Story: 2 Chapters S2: Completed 45 Chapters + Christmas Special (30~74) •Side Story: 3 Chapters S3: Completed 30 Chapters + 2022 New Year Special (75~104) •Side Story1: 2 Chapters •Side Story2: 2 Chapters

For those who may not notice, “Sadistic Beauty” came out during the time when people(/women) started to speak out about their unequal treatments or sexual assaults in work places. For example, like in Harvey Weinstein case or Johnny Depp case. Also “Fifty Shades of Gray” was in its height of popularity. So this series got a lot of attention on LezhinComics platform as it was the very first comic of its femdom genre and most importantly, it depicted a female character dealing with actual real life problems. Then it went on hiatus for approximately 3 or so years. People who followed the series from the very start were very supportive of the creator’s decision and waited patiently until the contract with Lezhin expired. When the series came back, it completely changed. Like in Johnny Depp case, but instead of female abuser, they ended up getting the female rapist. So, yes, they actually felt cheated. For one, they didn’t come here JUST for smut scenes.

I couldn’t predict most of the things that happened. It is a little frustrating at times, of course, but it is so worth it! The mess up of feelings and planned out actions were superb.

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