Chicky's manga / #Don’t know how I feel(2)

The first few chaps were rough. I felt uncomfortable reading them and they made me upset but yet the story intrigued me. I don’t know how to feel about it because I kinda liked the story that was told. NOT THE PEDOPHILIA!! No way!!... but it reached into the minds of victims and even covered how the family of a perpetrator felt (Mai) and how it shaped their lives and how they had to deal with it. It also dived into how a victims mind thinks, how they justify what has happened to them, and how they become the perpetrator after. And even tho it’s gross its true the victim and perp can end up loving each other but even they can’t escape what has been done they still have to deal with their family, friends, and the real world. That’s why I like that it wasn’t like other happy endings. Kei still had to deal with his trauma( going as far as taking pills to deal with the lasting effects )and accept what he had done to Yui. And Yui had to still hide himself and his feeling from his parents while lying to himself that He COULD leave his parents if they didn’t accept him and Kei but in reality he can’t. I feel like The author was just trying to shed light on different perspectives because at the end of the day this is just one-type of relationship that comes from events such as these. I also feel that people are more disgusted by the fact that it’s a yaoi and how it starts than actually realizing that it’s the story that’s what’s important. Everyone in the comments are saying that they are grossed out but this is a real life issue that no-one want to talk about and even tho this story is unpleasing it sheds light on this topic and makes people more aware of these type of situations. And also the fact that it’s a yaoi, I feel, brings more attention to the story so that more people will read it and learn. And with that the same people who say it’s a terrible story and that they wish they never read it had the choice to stop reading it but they continued instead. Because of this I feel that these same people really just wanted to read a plain old yaoi and were upset when they got an actual real life situation that they have ignored, and even through their anger at this story they still ignored the meaning behind the story and just focused on the fact that it made them uncomfortable and automatically had to reject as to not feel ‘gross’ about reading and maybe even liking it.

Ummm I don’t even know... I mean I... I can’t even put into words. I mean I like that hayan was respected as a transwoman and her pronouns were respected. I mean idk I guess it was a good story in the sense that it’s so post to be fucked up and it is fucked up. And the fact that it kind of made sense like how hayan was a practice, and how they escaped was efficient and reasonable. Also the fact that it didn’t drag on was pretty good too so yah I guess you could say it was a well put together messed up story.